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hey! just checkin in again. Well I have to go back to the doctors on thursday. I've lost a lot of weight because of all the stress. I finally figured out what is causing me to keep throwing up and stuff. It's all the stress and getting pissed about it all. I'm ready for everything to be done and over with. I don't really know what else to write today. I guess that I'm just ready for school to be over and get everything done. I'm trying to work on gaining weight again but it's not working. I finally felt the baby start to kick. I find out in like 3 more weeks what I'm having. I can't wait.

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Hey! Just wondering what everyone is up too?? It seems like no one posts anything anymore. But yea... I have news. I'm pregnant. I have pictures on my myspace of the baby. I don't know what I'm having yet. I won't know until I'm about 20 weeks. I'm 14 weeks and 3 days right now. I'm feeling a lot better than I was. I got sick and whatever. At least I'm not dealing with the morning sickness anymore. That's always a good thing. I hated dealing with it. It sucked. But yea, I should have more pictures to post in a weeks from Monday. If I have to have another ultra sound done. Which I probably will. Only because my doctor will want to know how everything is going. But whatever. I'm kind of excited about becoming a mom. I am but I'm not at the same time. I'm kinda scared. I know that I have friends and family to support me but it doesn't help that I just came back to school and now I found out that I'm pregnant. But yea... Just figured I should update and let everyone know whats going on.

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Random Thoughts 90

Hey! Just dropping in again to say hey. umm... not a lot has been going on. I'm still doing okay in school... but like I just found out today that because of a test I'm failing a class. I need to bring it up to passing soon. I only have like 6 weeks of school left. I hope that I can get my grade back up. I'm really hoping. I mean I'm only failing by a point but it still matters to me that I'm failing at all. I hate this class anyways but I don't want to have to take it again next semester. But anyways.... I hope that everyone will have a HAPPY HALLOWEEN! I know it's early but I think that it's better to be early than not to say anything at all. But yea... I'm gunna go

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Hey! Just checkin in again. I can't believe that halloween is like a week away. I kinda can't wait for it, but at the same time I can wait for it. I have a doctors appointment at 1:30 on halloween. I can't believe that. Whatever. At least I know that I have a doctors appointment. But due to recent events in my life I haven't really been on top of my game for like this whole semester. At least I know that I'm only failing one class. I'm working on getting my grades up. I hope that because of myt final project that I have to do I will be able to get my grade up to passing. But yea... just thought that I would update everyone on how I'm doing in school.

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Random Thoughts 88

Hey! Just checkin in again. Letting everyone know whats going on. Because of recent events in my life I have not had time to post anything. I am into my six week mark at college. So far it hasn't been that bad. I've had some drama but who doesn't go through it? I mean everyone has at least a little bit of stress in their life. But anywho... on the flip side. I'm finally getting divorced. I know that everyone who knows me is just like, "Finally! I thought this thing would never end."
Am I right?? But anyways. Class is about to start. so I g2g

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Random Thoughts 87

Hey! Just droppin in to update everyone. Well my life has been pretty okay until tuesday night. I found out that my husbands grandfather died. Umm... but other than that I've been swamped with homework. I love college but hate it at the same time. I mean I love it because I get to hang out with friends that I haven't seen in like forever but I hate it because of how much homework I get. If you don't do the homework then you won't know what your doing half the time, just like if you skip class. Which I have only done twice. Which I know that I shouldn't have but I did anyways. But anywho... umm.... just wondering what everyone is up too. Let me know.

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Hey! Just posting as an update again.. I still haven't finished my story yet. I'm still working on it. Slowly but I'm still working on it. WIth the way that college has been i haven't really had time to write. I've already skipped 2 classes. but it's all good. I don't think that I will skip anymore. Unless I get really sick. But I doubt that I will. I don't know I might though. Well I don't really have anything else to say today. I'm done with all of my classes and I'm dying for a cig. So I think that I'm going to go. Laters.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 85

Hey! Starting tomorrow is my third week of college. It's not bad so far. I mean some of the work is a lot but I'm handling it okay. I found out my math grade... It's not really all that great. But I can do some extra credit and get my grade up. Which is a good thing. But other than that my life hasn't really been all that exciting. I joined a club in college... I kinda feel like a geek because of it now, but i've made some cool friends. So yea... I guess this was just an update since I have some time. I'm suppose to be working on homework but I don't know how to do it. Whatever. I'm done. I'll get help with it later. I guess thats all I really have to say.

~hearts~ me

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Hey! Just dropping in to let everyone know whats up. Umm.... I don't really know what to say right now. I'm at my dads house. I'm babysitting... as always. I'm not really sure of a lot of things right now. I know that I start college in a like 6 days. It's kind of scary. But yea... I g2g

~hearts~ me

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Hey! Just posting to keep everyone updated. As most of you know, I start college in one week from today. I'm very excited but kind of nervous at the same time. In 6 days my husband will be home... yay! The day after he comes home I have to start college so that means I won't have a whole lot of time to spend with him. But I do know one thing and that is that I need to go shopping and get everything for college. I don't know when I'm going to be able too. I'm really stressed out right now too because I don't know if I'm going to be getting my finacial aid for college. I hope that I do. Cuz I know that I'm going to need it. Like seriously. I thought that everything would be taken care of by now, and it's not. I'm getting very impatent with everything thats going on. I know that I'm going to need to get my books and stuff for college. I don't know. I guess that I'm just getting annoyed cuz not everything is going my way. And I know that I need to get everything done. But yea... OH! before I forget. I haven't finished my stories yet. I don't know when I'll have a chance to do that. But as soon as I get them done I will be posting them on here.

~hearts~ me

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Hey! I guess that I will be posting my stories on here again. I had gotten told my someone who reads my blogs that they can not read my stories on storywrite.com. So I will be posting them on here again. When I get done writing my stories I will be posting them again. Hope you all will like them.

~hearts~ me

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Hey! It's just me. I'm just updating again. I started a new story. I got told that it was really good. I haven't posted it yet. I'm probably not going to be posting stories on here anymore. I will be posting them at www.storywrite.com/serniorgurl2007. If you wanna read them go a head and let me know what you think. But other than that I haven't really been doing much. I've been babysitting and thats just about it. Sounds like fun right? Yea... My husband is coming home next weekend. I'm kind of looking forward to it. I am in a way but in another way I'm not. I start college in a couple of weeks. I'm really excited about that. Yea... I guess that's all I really have to say.

~hearts~ me

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Hey! Just updating again. Well stupid me got addicted to a game. Runescape. I met two people on there and talked to them for a long time then I found out that their accounts got hacked. I give up. Will I ever be able to find someone to talk to with out their account getting hacked? Probably not. Whatever. Thats just my luck. I'm just about to stop playing. seriously. I don't know what else to do. Whatever I'm done. I hope that everyone is having a better luck than I am. I think that I was cursed with bad luck. Whatever.

me

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Hey! Just updating. Not a whole lot has been going on. I watched a movie last night. It was called "The Mist". I will never watch that movie again. The ending of it pissed me off. I mean I went on a whole rampage about it in my diary. So now the meaning "If you just waited five more minutes" has a whole new meaning to me. Like seriously. But anywho... I can't wait until next month. I have a lot to do. I'm gunna be busy. I just can't wait. Next month I'm getting my first tattoo. I can't wait. I think this is where I'm going to end my blog today.

~hearts~ me

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Hey! I know I haven't posted anything in a while but now I finally have something to write about. I went to warp tour on the 24th of this month. It was awsome. I can't wait to go back next year. Like seriously. I had a blast. Then last night I finally got to talk to someone that I haven't talked to in like forever. So that was cool. But anyways... back to warp tour. It was the most fun I have ever had. Like seriously. I didn't think that it would be fun but it was AMAZING! LIke seriously. I'm glad that a friend of mine talked me into going. By the time we got home we were all beat. The next day pretty much killed us but we did whatever anyways. It was awsome though. I can't wait to go next year. I just hope that they have some really good bands playing. Then next month I'm going to get my first tattoo. I'm really excited about that too. But yea. That was all I really wanted to say.

~hearts~ me

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Hey! I have finally decided that I'm not going to be posting the rest of my story on here. Only because of how it is starting to turn out. If you want to read it ask me for the other webpage that I'm posting it on. I don't know how everyone will react to it but I will find out when everyone reads it. I'm kind of afraid to know what everyone is going to say about it. I don't know. I guess that I'll figure that out later. I don't really have much to say. So I'm going to go.

~hearts~ me

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Hey! I just posted my story. Let me know what you think. It's not done yet but I'm still working on it. I don't know how long it's going to be yet. I'm kind of stuck because I know where I want the story to go but I don't know exactly how to put it in writting. I'm still trying to figure that out. But anywho... I can't wait until I go to college in the fall. I'm looking forward to it. Look out world, here I come. I'm going to college to become a laywer. I'm very excited. I can't wait for everything to finally fall into place. Maybe then something exciting will happen in my life. I doubt it though. anywho... Let me know what you think of my story.

~hearts~ me

The Untitled

Hi! I am here to tell you a tale of what has happened to me through out my life. Well one day I got up just as I normally did. I got ready for work. Same old story, right? Wrong! I was never expecting what happened that morning, but I will get into that in a minute. I was leaving my cozy little apartment, getting ready to go to work. I thought to myself, “I have a boring life. I wish something exciting would happen.” Then all of a sudden someone threw a bag over my head and knocked me out. Like before I even knew what was going on. Then I woke up a couple of hours later. I noticed that I was in a car and it was moving. I didn’t know where I was headed or anything. I figured that I would try and move my hands but then realized that they were tied behind my back. I couldn’t move at all. I started to panic. Then someone finally said in a soft female voice,
“Look who’s finally awake.”
“Where the hell am I?” was all I could squeak out.
“Don’t worry about where you are, worry about who your with.”
With that sentence I just shut my mouth and waited. I wasn’t really sure where I was or where I was going or who I was with. So I just sat in the car quietly waiting for the car to stop. I could hear people whispering in front of me. I figure out that I was in a stretch limo but I wasn’t sure why I was there. Finally I asked, “Does this have something to do with the wish that I had made earlier?”
“No. I don’t think so anyway.” the female voice had answered me.
“Okay. Then who am I with?” and with that question someone had punched me in the head and knocked me out again. When I woke up, the bag was off my head and I was sitting straight up in a chair in a huge room with food on the table that I was sitting at. I didn’t know where I was, but I knew that I wasn’t tied up anymore. So I thought. I tried to get up from the chair and table, but realized that it was useless. I didn’t really think that they would let me get away that quick. I was strapped down to the chair. I wasn’t tied. That much I knew, but I didn’t know that I was strapped down. Then all of a sudden someone walked through the door that I hadn’t noticed. A woman walked in. She was blonde, about 5 foot 7 inches tall, and, to me, it looked like she was no bigger than a size two. She was dressed in a pink top and a long grey skirt with black high heels on.
“Where am I?”
“That is none of your business.”
“Well I think that it is my business. I was kidnapped and brought here. I want to know where I’m at.”
“You will know soon enough but right now we need to know what your name is.”
“My name?!” I asked confused and surprised.
“Yes. What is your name?”
“First I want to know your name.”
It looked like she wasn’t about to give out that kind of information until I told her what my name was. I wasn’t about to give up though. I wanted to make sure that she knew that too.
“That’s not important.”
“I think that it is.”
“It’s really not. I just need to know your name.”
“Give me a good reason of why I should give you my name!”
“I can’t give you that information.”
Finally I started to cave. I was about to give her my name when I couldn’t remember what my name was. I had gotten knocked out twice and had just woke up. I was never good at remembering anything until I had a cup of coffee.
“can I at least have a cup of coffee first then I will tell you my name.”
“Fine. Do you take anything in your coffee?”
“A little bit of creamer and two sugar.”
She rushed out of the room to get me a cup of coffee. When she returned she locked the door behind her and let me go.
“There now you have your coffee tell me what your name is!”
She was starting to get impatient. I still had no idea of who I was. I figured that she would give me a break and let me drink my coffee first. Then I realized I didn’t know this woman and she could have poisoned my coffee.
“My name is… uh… I have no idea of what my name is.”
The woman mumbled under her breath “Uh oh”
That didn’t sound too good to me. I couldn’t remember my own name. I hoped that it would come to me. As we both sat there I kept thinking about my family and what they had called me. Then it came to me all of a sudden.
“Ted”
“Excuse me?!”
“My name is Ted.”
As soon as I said that, I heard the door unlock and I had four people in the room gawking at me. I wasn’t sure what to think about that.
“Okay now that I told you my name, what is your name?” The woman just looked at me like “what are you talking about?” Then she remembered.
“My name is Lucy.”
“I use to have a sister named Lucy, but she died when she was sixteen.”
“Yes I know.”
“How would you know that?!”
“I know a lot more about you than you realize, Ted.”
“Then why did you ask me what my name was?”
“I wanted to make sure you knew what your name was.”
“Okay. OH! Where am I? You still haven’t answered that question.”“I told you it wasn’t important. Just like my name wasn’t important.”“I want to know where I’m at.”
Lucy looked at me and said “I’m surprised that you don’t know where you are.”
I was lost. I didn’t know what she was talking about. I didn’t really look around either. It seemed like as soon as I tried to pull free from the chair someone was right there to stop me if I did break free. As this conversation was going on the four people that had entered the room were still there listening to every word that was said. I finally broke eye contact with Lucy and looked around the room, it looked like we were in my old apartment in New York city. I knew that I couldn’t be in my old apartment though because I knew that my apartment wasn’t this big. I was still lost as to why they wanted me. I knew I couldn’t ask them were I was because the last couple of times I asked I didn’t get a straight answer. So I just sat there and waited for one of the four goons that were in there now to say something. No one said something. They looked at me like I was a god or something. Then all of a sudden someone opened the door. It flew past where I was sitting. I could feel the wind on my face. Then I noticed that the room smelled like mildew. I was surprised that I didn’t smell it before. The guy that had walked into the room was dressed in a business suit. He had black hair, wire rim glasses, blue eyes, and looked like he worked out a lot. The guy looked familiar but I couldn’t place where I had seen him before. When he walked into the room everyone stood up and didn’t look him directly in the eyes. I wondered if the guy was their leader?
Finally he spoke as if he knew everything in the world.
“Welcome to our humble home, Ted.”
I was stunned. He knew my name and wasn’t even in the room when I had said my name. Unless he was listening from somewhere but I didn’t see how that was possible. It looked like every wall was solid concrete. “Looks can be deceiving.” I thought to myself.
I thought that his voice sounded familiar too. I just could not place where I had heard it.
“Uh… Thank you?”
I didn’t know what else to say.
“You are probably wondering why you are here.”“Yes I am. Why am I here and where exactly is here?”
“You are here because you are a chosen one and where we are isn’t really that important.”
“What exactly is a chosen one?”“You are. I’m surprised you didn’t notice anyone following you for the last couple of weeks.”
That was where I knew him from. I saw him in the park following me. I tried to lose him in a big crowd then I went back to my apartment and he was standing right there. I think that he tried to talk to me but I thought that he was crazy. He had told me before that I was a chosen one. I didn’t know what he was talking about so I ignored him.
I guess now I should have listened. I think he also tried to warn me about some people that were after me. I didn’t think that I was in harms way. He had read my mind.
“See I knew that I wasn’t crazy, but you didn’t want to listen to me.”
“I see now that I should have listened.”“Exactly.”
I wasn’t exactly sure where this conversation was going. Then I realized I didn’t know what this guys name was. He knew my name but I didn’t catch his. Although I’m pretty sure no one had said his name.
“What is your name?!”
“Andrew. I am the leader of this group.”
OH. I had forgotten that there were still people in the room.
“Can’t you send your little minions else where so they aren’t listening to everything we say?”
“No. Only because what I’m about to tell you will change your life. We don’t know how you will react to it.”“Okay. So just tell me already.”
Andrew didn’t say anything for a while. It was like he was listening for something. After what seemed like an hour, Andrew spoke.
“What you are about to hear is top secret and you can not tell anyone, your not even allowed to write it down and if you do we will know and you will be dead that same day.”
After Andrew said that, I was scared. I wasn’t sure if I even wanted to hear what I was about to. Andrew continued with what he was saying.
“You are the chosen one.”
He paused right there and decided to get rid of his goons. “Finally!” I thought. After everyone was out of the room he continued.
“I am the leader of this group, but you already know that. You’re wondering Okay what is this “group” you talk of? This is the easy part to tell you. The group is called… well we really don’t know what we are called. We are set out to find the chosen ones. I was the chosen one until we found you. The reason that we have been following you is because we wanted to make sure that you really were the chosen one. We were right. We represent a very hidden very secret mission that needs to be solved by September 31st, 3015. The mission is simple but because no one has the brain power that you do the mission has not been completed. The mission is too make sure whatever comes across the radio is not from outer space. Aliens have been trying to reach out and make people believe that they will be safer on another planet. Which in turn is not safe for humans at all. We figure that if anyone goes into space and the Aliens pick them up, that they will not come back home. We have already lost about a handful of people and we don’t want to lose anymore.”
While I sat there listening to all of this I knew I would have questions. How do they know that aliens really do exists? Why am I the chosen one out of all the brainiacs in the world? What is the point of this? Why don’t they just let the people of earth go to outer space? Why keep everyone sheltered from it? I had so many questions that it made my head hurt. I had to figure out what day it was and how long I had before time was up, and what would happen if time ran out? I finally got my brain to slow down a little bit to ask what the date was. Andrew told me that it was July 22, 3015. That ment I had little over a month to figure everything out and stop the aliens from coming to Earth. I didn’t understand anything.
I wanted to understand. I had no idea of how to go about that. I wanted answers. I wasn’t sure how to get them. I didn’t realize that Andrew wasn’t done talking.
“The reason why we have chosen you is because I am dying.”
“WHAT?!” I scream. “How can this be happening? Why am I the one that has to figure this out? I have a lot more questions but I can’t even think straight right now.”
With everything that I was told, I couldn’t think straight let a lone take in any more information. I didn’t even want to look at Andrew. Then he brought his minions back inside the room. He told them to take me into a room where I could sleep and think about thing. Then he told them to guard the door so that I couldn’t escape.

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Hey! I'm working on a new story. I'm probably going to finish it tonight. I don't care how long I'm up working on it. I don't have a name for the story yet so if you can help me think of one then let me know. Right now I'm calling it "The Untitled". I'm not really sure where the inspiration for the story but I think that it's going to be one of my best. Maybe not though. I don't know maybe everyone will have to read it and find out. I'm excited about this story, because as some of you know I've had writters block for a couple of weeks. So now I'm just looking for something to start a spark to write a story. I found one tonight. I was going to go to bed but then I got inspired. Maybe it's because I'm reading one of my favorite books and I know that it's almost the last one of the seris. Well let me know what you think.

~hearts~ me

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Hey! first off I would like to say Happy 4th of July everyone. I hope that everyone is having a great one. Have a safe one and have fun. Thats the most important part. On that note.... I hope that everyone is doing okay. I haven't really heard from anyone for a while. Let me know how you all are doing. Stay outta trouble. Let me know what you think of my stories. I guess thats all I really wanted to say.

~hearts~ me

Muffins part 2

After everything that had happened with Alexis, Nathan knew that she was now safe and couldn’t cheat on him. He was now a widower. This meant that he could go out and get remarried or date whoever he wanted. Nathan didn’t know how to go out and look for a woman anymore. So he went to some of his friends and tried to figure out how to pick up a woman. One of his friends said that they were going out to a bar and wondered if he wanted to tag along. Nathan said sure. So they went out and Nathan met someone. Her name was Suzy. They talked for a while. Then finally she asked him why he wasn’t drinking anything. He told her it was because he had to drive his friends home. She said okay and was wondering if she could catch a ride with them. Nathan asked her where she lived. She told him and he said that he lived in the same building. After Nathan found this out he had other ideas.
It was after one o’clock in the morning and Nathan’s friends said that they were ready to leave. Nathan said okay and to give him the keys. So they did. Nathan drove his friends home and told one of his friends that he would take his car back to him the next morning. He said okay and walked to his house. Then Nathan and Suzy went back to the building where they lived and Nathan had to carry Suzy up the stairs. Then he asked her if he wanted him to stay with her through the night just in case something bad happened. She said yes. Then she decided that she wanted him to sleep with her. So they both went in the bedroom to go lay down. Then Suzy started kissing Nathan. Things lead on. (You know the rest of the story.) The next morning Suzy was still sleeping when Nathan woke up. So he went out and bought some things for breakfast. While Nathan was out Suzy woke up. She thought that he had left for good. Then five minutes later Nathan walked through the door. Suzy was kind of surprised that he had groceries in his hand. Then Nathan made a pot of coffee and cooked breakfast. They talked about what had happened the night before. Suzy didn’t know what to think of that. Then she asked Nathan if he would like to keep seeing her. He said yes.
They dated for a while. After about six months he asked her to marry him. She was flattered but didn’t know if she was ready to get married. Nathan said okay but kept asking her once every week until she finally said yes.
They got married and he started drinking and abusing his wife. Suzy did the same thing that Alexis had done. She left. So he found out where she was and became one of her best friends. Suzy didn’t know that it was Nathan under all of the make up and baggy clothes. He called himself Arianna. Suzy thought that something was strange about Arianna. She just let it go though and she told him everything that had happened to her. Arianna said that someone had told her the exact same story only it didn’t end too well. Suzy got scared and moved out of town but Nathan followed her. He dressed in different clothes and changed his voice so that she wouldn’t know that it was the same person. Suzy finally decided that she needed a way out and to kill herself was the best choice. She wrote a note to Nathan again saying what a dick he was and that she felt sorry for the next woman that he dated. She hoped that she wouldn’t marry him. And of course Nathan found her hanging from the living room ceiling. He called the police and held the note very dear to him. He kept the note in a shoe box under his bed.
A couple of days later Nathan was watching the news and had found out that Suzy called the police on him and they were looking for him. Nathan tried to run but every where he went someone knew that it was him. Finally they caught him and put him in jail for the abuse of two women. They let him out six months later. It started all over again.

Muffins

Muffins are good. They make your tummy happy. There are many different kinds of muffins.
On a different note this is going to be a story about a woman named Alexis who loves to bake. She finds a bunch of different recipes for making muffins. She makes one batch and she eats one and doesn’t like it so she makes a different batch and eats that one and she doesn’t like it either. So then she tries something else and doesn’t like it either. So she keeps trying to hunt for a muffin recipe that she will like.
On her hunt for a muffin recipe she meets someone. His name is Nathan. As they talked they got to know each other pretty well. She thought that he was gay until he asked her out. She said yes and they dated for a while. Then on they’re one year anniversary Nathan asked Alexis to marry him. She said yes. But she didn’t know the consequences of marring him.
After a couple of months of being married Nathan started to change. Alexis didn’t think anything of it. She was still trying to find the muffin recipe that she would like. Then one day Nathan came home from work and he started drinking. Alexis didn’t think anything of it because she figured that he would just have one or two and stop because he needed to relax. So she made a new batch of muffins and he ate one and flipped out. He started telling her that she was nothing but a dirty whore and that he couldn’t believe that he married her. Alexis didn’t know how to react to that. So she did what any woman would do. She started to cry. Then Nathan told her that she was just a baby and that she needed to toughen up. So he started beating her. She just laid on the floor and took the beating. She was defenseless against Nathan. A couple months later Nathan kept beating on Alexis. Finally Alexis decided that she was going to leave. But she was so afraid of Nathan coming to look for her. So she had to find a place to go. She didn’t know where to go because she knew that Nathan knew where she went. Alexis finally figured out that she needed to get out of town and change her name. So she did.
Alexis took time to find her favorite muffin recipe and she made some good friends. She finally found the one that she really liked. Banana nut. That was her favorite. After she found that she didn’t know what else to live for and she finally shot herself in the head. She left a note for Nathan and told him everything that she wanted to say. And what she had to say was how much that he hurt her and she left because she couldn’t take the beatings anymore. She also told him not to worry she was in a better place now. Finally one of her friends walked in and found her laying dead on the living room floor. Her friend found the note and read it to herself. She new that that was what Alexis had wanted. Her friend knew about her past and dealt with Alexis killing herself. She called the police and kept the note very dear to her, because in the end, Alexis’s friend wasn’t a she, it was Nathan.

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Hey! I don't really have a lot to talk about. I want to do some research but I have no idea what to research. If you have any ideas then let me know. I don't care if it will only take me an hour or 3 days. I don't care how long it will take me. I just need something to do. I feel like my life is way pathetic. The reason I feel this way is because all I ever do now is stay at home or go babysit. What an exciting life.... ~rolls eyes~ Oh, I do have some news though. I have now offically been married for one year. Since monday. And tuesday was my one year of being out of high school. I can't believe that it's been that long already. My husband is leaving for california in like 2 weeks so I'm not going to get to talk to him. I don't think. Then he'll be home for 2 weeks in august and then after he goes back to where he's at now he leaves for Iraq. I have a lot on my plate right now. I don't know if I'm going to be able to handle him leaving. I guess that I'll deal though. And lastly, I'm helping my brother write a book. It's called Powerful Epiphany. I wonder how that will turn out?!

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Hey! I just posted 3 stories. I need some help on 2 of them. The one posted Alex and Hatred,war, fighting, death. I don't exactly know where to take them from the point that I'm at. So if you have any suggestions. Let me know. leave me a comment or e-mail me at marine_gurl2007@yahoo.com. Thanks. Hope you all enjoy my stories.

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"Hatred, fighting, war, death"

“What has this world come too? Hatred, fighting, war and death. Exactly that. No one believes in peace and love anymore. They say that the war is going to end but here we are still fighting to keep our freedom. Deaths happen everyday. The government can’t even keep the peace between the cities anymore. They are too worried about what happening in a third world country. Maybe they should start paying attention to their own country. There are people living on the streets here in America. No one understands what some of the high schools go through. The government doesn’t give a shit one way or another. People die everyday but the only things you hear on the news now a days are about the war in Iraq, celebrities who have died or got pregnant and the weather. They don’t care about America. With society today if your gay then you get the shit kicked outta you in the big cities. In the suburb, the parents disown you. In the country, people fight with you because of what you are. It’s not right. Some parents are still against having colored people in schools. I got a news flash for those people, they need to get over it. Parents think that they could walk in out shoes, well news flash, I would rather do their jobs than have to go back to school. Let them take our place for a day. Then maybe they would treat us with some respect. Why don’t they try and deal with the heartache and the abuse that the teenagers go through now a days. They don’t even know what pain is. Let them deal with the stress. Let them deal with the changing of the laws. Let them deal with a friend whose parents want nothing to do with them. They don’t know the half of it. Parents wonder why their kids do drugs and drink all the time, deal with the reality of being a teenager now. No one takes them seriously. Maybe the “adults” should start caring about what kids get taught in school now a days. But apparently they don’t care. No one can stand the fact that the schools can’t get help from the government because out country keeps spending money on a third world country. Maybe they should let the people run the country instead of a government. Everyone might be better off.
Thank you for listening.”
The start of a day in the life of Monica Spirit. As soon as she woke up she thought that something was different. She couldn’t place her finger on it until she got to school. She heard the announcement and thought that maybe the school should do a protest against everything that America was doing wrong. Because she was only a teenager she didn’t think that anyone would listen to her. She finally decided to see if the students wanted to start a protest against everything. So she made up a partition that had a list of everything that the government was doing to screw them over in the long run. Monica was determine to get everyone at her school to sign it. She knew that the teenagers were the future of this country. She didn’t know exactly how to make it so that everyone would sign it but after that announcement she figured that the teenagers would sign anything to rebel against the government, but first she had to do some research. She starting asking her friends what they wanted to do when they got older. None of them had an answer because they figured that the government would make that choice for them just like they do now. No one can go to school and not have the government find out. No one could disappear without the government knowing. No one could even say something without the government knowing about it. No one knew what would come of this country if they didn’t have the government to tell them what to do all the time. Everyone figured that this was how life was suppose to be but not everyone thought that. Monica sure didn’t. She didn’t want the government choosing what she did for the rest of her life. They might help in some ways but if they can’t even help their own country then why should the people have to deal with it. Monica was determine to find out what they had in store for the next twelve years of her life. She was only a sophomore in high school and she already knew that the government was screwing people out of money and jobs because they need the money more than the people do. So they think anyways. The government thinks that they are doing a good thing but what if it was one of their family members over in the war? Would they still want the war going on? Probably not. They don’t care about the families that lose people that are very dear to them.
“No that would never happen.” in the words of our government.
They wouldn’t allow that to happen. Send an innocent civilian over to Iraq and let them die for our freedom. God forbid if they send someone from the governments family over to Iraq. Let them go over there and get shot at. Maybe even let one of them die and see how they like it. I don’t think that they would like it very much. They don’t even care about what’s been going on in the schools because their kids all go to a PRIVATE boarding school in another country. They don’t know how many kids get sick a year from eating the school food that they serve. No one knows how long that food has been sitting there.
From Monica’s point of view it’s disgusting. The government should really worry about everything that has been happening in their own country before they even start to worry about anything else. So the twin towers went down big whoop. You don’t hear about it anymore. Some people are surprised when it’s brought up in a conversation. Everyone has forgotten about it basically. Except for the people that had lost someone in the crash. Other than that no one remembers. Our troops are still over there because the government wants to keep them over there. They are sending our younger men to Iraq to die so that the older people and children of this world will have a better life. News flash there won’t be children if the newly married guys keep going over to Iraq and keep dying. There is going to be no future if they don’t come home soon. Monica was getting annoyed with all these thoughts going through her head. She didn’t know exactly what to do but if she could get a group of teenagers together then she figured they could come up with something. The first thing she knew what they had to do was make it so that the troops came home. After school was out she went home and started making an outline for everything that had to be done. She didn’t even realize how fast the day had gone because she was so caught up in all of her thoughts and what needed to get done. By the time she went to bed it was really late.
The next day at school, she gathered all of her friends and told them about what she was planning to do. They went and told all of their friends and by lunch the whole school was buzzing about what was going to happen after school. The teenagers were excited about everything. They couldn’t wait until after school so that they could get a jump start on everything. Monica told everyone to meet in the cafeteria. As soon as the last bell rang everyone headed straight for the cafeteria. The parking lot stayed empty. The teachers didn’t know what to think about that. Every had stayed after school. They had to know what Monica had to say about the government and the war in Iraq.
As soon as she had everyone attention she started off by telling them that she wanted to start a petition to get the government to take the troops out of Iraq. She wanted it to be every where. She wanted as many signatures as they could get. After the teenagers found out what Monica was doing then they set out to help. Some of the kids new other people from out of the district so they called them up and asked them to help out. They all agreed to help out the cause.
The next day at school everyone reported to Monica. Some of the teenagers told her that they had called some of their friends from another school and told them what it was about and they wanted to help out. Monica said okay and then went to go make more petitions. Monica was excited about everything. She figured that when she got older that she would look back to this day and see how it changed her life.
What Monica didn’t know was that it was going to change her life for the worst. Monica wanted to make the world a better place but didn’t know that by bringing the troops home that it was going to affect everything. She’s going to be the one that gets blamed for the military not doing their jobs and then the military is going to fall apart. America won’t have any protection from other countries and they are going to get taken over by another country.
Monica was hoping to get everything done with in the couple of weeks. Her next move was to write a letter to the government and explain to them what was going on and what the people thought of this war. She was going to make it so that the letter was sort of mean but in a nice kind of way. She wanted to make sure they knew that she ment business. She didn’t want them to know that they were getting a letter from a teenager. They would probably look up her name and find out that she was only sixteen, but she didn’t care. She wanted them to know what was going on in their own country.
Monica went home and wrote the letter. It read:
“Dear Mr. President,
My name is Monica Spirit. I just wanted to inform you about what the people have been saying about the war in Iraq. There are a lot of people that are very anti-war. So as a result of this we have made a petition. There are over four hundred signatures. The people want to bring the troops home. Thank you for your time.
Signed,
Monica”
Monica was very proud of this letter. She couldn’t wait until she could get this letter mailed out. She figured that she should have done some research first but she was so excited about writing this letter that she didn’t even think about it until after she wrote the letter. The next day at school she took all of the petitions and stuck them in the envelope and put it in the mail. She didn’t know how long it would take for the letter to get to the president. She hoped that it wouldn’t take very long.
A couple of weeks later Monica was running late for school and didn’t get a chance to catch the news, so she asked a couple of her friends and they told her that all of the troops were coming home. Monica was so excited. She didn’t know how to handle herself. As the day went by she couldn’t believe that she had missed that announcement from the president. She was kind of mad at herself. She would soon get over it though.
A couple of years later Iraq found out that the military in America was no longer an issue. So the people of Iraq decided that they were going to bomb America and take over. They had succeeded so far. Finally everyone started to point fingers at one another for who had made it so that the military quit their jobs. Then they started thinking about what was going on and what had happened. Then everyone started to remember that Monica was a student in high school and made it so that the troops were coming home. She was the cause of everything. Finally they found her working in a McDonalds and told her that she was banned from that town and state.
Monica didn’t know what to do. So she packed all of her stuff and set out on an adventure. No one else wanted her in their town either. So she left for another country. She figured that she could go to England. She knew that no one knew her in England. So she boarded the next plane. It was a long flight. She couldn’t wait to get there. She had an adventure a head of her.
As soon as her plane landed she couldn’t wait until she could find a place to stay. Monica found a cute little hotel to stay in. She just had to pick up the lingo and whatever. So she set out to find a place to hang. Finally she found a place. It was a quaint little restaurant. She found some kids that were her age. She tried to hang out with them and they didn’t want to hang out with her. They knew exactly who she was. So she went to find the backstreets of the neighborhood that she was living in. Maybe someone wouldn’t recognize her and want to hang out. Finally she ran into someone and they started to hang out. Her name was Arianna. Monica said that was a pretty name. Then Monica asked her if she knew who she was. Arianna said yes and she didn’t care who she was. Monica thought that was cool. So they became really good friends and they hung out a lot. They did everything together. Arianna started to dress like Monica. Monica started to get a little annoyed with Arianna.

Kristen and Dorathy (Dora)

Once there was a woman named Kristen. She was married to a hockey player. When they first got married everything was great. After a while things started to change. Her husband would come home after a long night of drinking and would beat her. Not just mentally but physically too. Kristen was from a small town in Tennessee.
One day while Kristen was shopping she met someone. Her name was Dorothy but everyone called her Dora. Dorothy listened to everything that Kristen had to say. Kristen told Dora that she was also in school.
Kristen was in college. She only had day classes and stayed home on days that her husband was there. She didn’t want him to know that she was in college. Kristen didn’t want her husband to know too much about her. That’s why she kept it a secret. One day while Kristen is in school they were talking about how people got abused. Kristen in front of the whole class blurts out “YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT IT’S LIKE TO GET ABUSED!” Kristen horrified at what she had just said ran out of class. No one knew what she had ment by this. So they waited until she came back to school to ask her what was going on.
Kristen ran to Dora’s house. She knew that she shouldn’t have gone there but it was her only way to get out of the situation and everyone knew where Kristen lived. They didn’t know where Dora lived. Although they could probably find out. Kristen found Dora sitting outside of her place.
“Dora, Why are you sitting outside of your own place?”
“Because I live with four other people and I couldn’t stand the noise anymore.”
“Oh. I didn’t know that you lived with four other people.”
“Yea.”
“That’s gotta suck.”
“Yea. Why are you here?”
“Oh. Right. I was going to tell you as soon as I got here. I forgot for a minute.”
“So, are you going to tell me?”
“Right. Yea. I just blurted out to my whole class everything about my husband abusing me.”
“Oh shit. Girl, that’s not good.”
“Yea I know. I didn’t mean too its just what we were talking about in class today. I don’t want anyone to worry about me. So I’ve come up with a plan.”
“You’ve gotta tell me what your plan is.”
“Okay. My plan is to run away and never come back to this place. I’m just going back to school to tell everyone that I’m moving away and that I just need my transcripts so that I can go back to college when I get where ever I’m going.”
“Ooooo. I want to come along.”
“Okay but we leave at midnight tomorrow.”
“Okay. I’ll have all of my stuff packed and ready to go. One question first, why midnight?”
“Because that way I know my husband will be asleep and I won’t have to answer any of his questions of why I’m leaving and that way I won’t have to deal with him abusing me anymore.”
“Okay.”
After making plans with Dora, Kristen went home and got some sleep. The next day Kristen walked into school and got her transcripts. As Kristen was waiting to get her stuff, her teacher walked up to her and wanted to talk to her about her out burst in class from the day before. Kristen really didn’t want to talk about what she had done. But she gave in and talked to her teacher. Her teacher thought that Kristen should call the police. Kristen told him no and that she was running away so that she could get away from it all. Then she walked out the door.
Later that night Kristen met up with Dora. Their plan was going to go through. Kristen and Dora were happy to go. They couldn’t wait to get going. After a couple of minutes they left. They thought that this would be a journey. They didn’t know any of the consequences that lie a head for them.
After walking for about an hour they came up to a river. Dora knew this river.
“Kristen, I know this river. It’s full of crocs.”
“So what should we do?”
“I think that we should just keep walking on land for a while.”
“Okay but it looks like if we keep walking then we’re going to end up hitting a dead end then our journey will be over.”“Okay. Lets get into the water.”“Okay.”
“Wait look, there’s boat down there. We can use them to keep going.”“That’s awesome.”
“I know.”
Kristen and Dora took the boats and headed down stream. On their way through they didn’t realize that something was coming up behind them. Kristen got attacked first. It turned her boat over. Kristen got scared and ended up swimming and finding a red bridge that just led straight up and back to the land. After Kristen got back on land she realized that something was coming after her and fast. She turned around and looked to see what it was, rabid bunnies. Kristen got really scared and started running. She was running and didn’t know where she was going, until she hit the cliff. It was a good ten feet to the water. She either had to jump or let the bunnies get her. So Kristen jumped. Because of the adrenaline rush Kristen didn’t feel herself hit the water. She thought that maybe she was falling for a good amount of time when it was only like two minutes.
After hitting the water Kristen found her boat. Kristen told Dora that they should keep going down river and see where they end up. Kristen didn’t want to go back to that evil place again. She didn’t want to go back and get beat by her husband. After all that was the one reason she ran away from that place.
After everything that had happened, Dora and Kristen decided that they were hungry and had to stop to eat something. After they were done they kept on their journey. They still had no idea where they were going to go, but they knew they had to keep going.
Finally Dora asked Kristen what they should do. If they should find a town and ask where they are. So they paddled over to the bank. They pulled the boats on to shore. They walked for a while until they came upon a town. The town looked pretty deserted. Kristen and Dora were afraid that if they didn’t find anyone that they would have walked all of this way for nothing. They kept walking. As they were just getting ready to turn around and go back someone yelled to them. They were surprised that anyone would talk to them at first. Then they remembered that no one should know them. So they waved.
“Hi.”
“Hi. What brings you around here?”
“Uh, we got lost and were wondering where we were.”“Oh. That’s easy, your in Kentucky.”
“Kentucky?!?”
“Yea.”With an amazed look on Kristen and Dora’s faces, the person that they were talking too asked them what their names were. Without knowing what this person had said. Dora spoke first.
“My name is Dora and this is Kristen. What’s your name?”
“My name is Sara.”
“Its nice to meet you.”“Same.”
“Want me to show you around town?”“Sure that would be great.” Blurted out Dora.
Kristen was still in shock. She didn’t know they had gone that far and not realized it. Dora finally nudged Kristen and told her what was going on and asked her what was up. Kristen told Dora that she was just in shock about the whole thing. Dora told Kristen not to worry about it. She couldn’t believe it either. They just knew that they had to get away from that town and get away from those people. They had been through so much that they just needed away out. So they found it. They snuck off.
Later that night they found a place to sleep in a town. They watched tv and the news came on and they saw their pictures flash across the screen. They wondered what was going on. So they listened and as they were listening someone had filed a missing persons report on them. They just wanted to get everything done and over with. They figured that if they could stay hidden for a while then everyone would give up looking for them and they would all think that they were dead. The next morning they set back out on their journey. They still didn’t know where they were going but they knew they had to get away.
Finally they ended up in California and the hunt for them stopped and they started their new lives. Kristen woke up. She couldn’t believe that she had had that dream. She wondered what it ment. She was glad that she wasn’t married. That way she didn’t have to deal with what had happened in the dream. She made sure that she would never get married. That day she had met someone named Dora. It was the same person that she saw in her dream. Kristen thought that it was creepy.

Alex

Once it had all seemed so normal, that was the premise of the life that I had grown to know. I can’t say I was happy with it, but now thinking back at it, I think that I was happier then. If only there was one chance that I could go back and change it. Would I take the chance or would I let it slide right past me? I wonder this kind of thing everyday. I’m still not sure what’s happened other than the fact that I have this irreversible ability that no one can explain. Even the person that had given me the powers that I now posses, I suppose the powers have exceeded what he had wanted to give me. I wasn’t too sure about anything anymore. I tried for weeks to figure everything out. I wasn’t sure exactly how to do that. So I’m just going on everyday like nothing ever happened to me. Except that I know in my head that something did happen to me. It doesn’t make me happy but I know that I have to deal with it. My friends even think that I have gone all weird. So I finally told them that I was leaving school to go find myself. I told them that I would write to them every day. They were not too happy with my decision, but I knew what I had to do. I had to figure out how to mange these powers and live life everyday. Without hurting someone in the process.
So I set out in my journey to “find myself”. I wasn’t exactly sure what I was going to be looking for or if I would be able too control these powers without hurting someone. So I thought to myself, Well maybe I can find a place where no one lives. Then I thought to myself, is there such a place? I wasn’t sure but I was going to find out.
I finally found a place where I would be left alone and no one would bother me. It took a couple of days but I finally found the place. I was in a place that everyone knew of but no one would come. They all said that this place was hunted or something. Whatever. Why believe in something that you know isn’t really true? Right?
So I sat down and started concentrating on my powers to see if I could control them. It didn’t really work. I wasn’t focused enough too be able to control them. I finally gave up and wrote to my friends. I told them that I was in a nice place with a lot of people to help me “find myself”. When really I was only like 12 blocks from them. So I put my letters in the mail. Then I sat down and tried to concentrate again. Something was really bugging me though. I couldn’t figure out what it was. So I went back and tried to figure it out. Then someone said behind me, “what are you doing here?” I thought that I was going to jump right out of my skin. I didn’t know that anyone was right behind me. So I turned around to see who was behind me and when I turned around I wasn’t expecting what I saw. It was a ghost. I didn’t think that the stories were true but they were. Then I remembered “oh yea, they asked me a question. I should probably answer them.” So I told the ghost that I was there because I was trying to find myself. Like I had told my friends. He introduced himself to me. His name was Lewis. I told him my name was Christian.
Then he told me that he knew why I was really there. He knew that I had special powers. I was freaked out by him knowing this. Then he told me that he was there to help me figure out what I wanted to know. I didn’t know how to go at this. So I just nodded. I was speechless.
Lewis just told me that he knew that he was suppose to follow me around and see how far I got on controlling my powers, and as far as he was concerned I didn’t get very far. He was right. I didn’t get very far. I just ignored them until they got too bad. Then I decided that I had to get away from people and make it so that I could control them. So then afterwards I had to make sure that I was going to be able to control my powers but until then I had to figure something out. I had to make sure that I had something to do or else I would get bored and start hurting people. I hate it when I get bored, but Lewis was there so that was a bonus. I couldn’t wait until he started giving me lessons. Lewis finally walked in and told me that I should get some sleep because I had a long day a head of me. He also told me that I had to be up really early in the morning. I didn’t ask any questions. I laid down and closed my eyes and went to sleep. Next thing I know I’m getting woken up by someone and I thought that it was my mother. But I figured out that it wasn’t my mother. It was Lewis trying to wake me up. Finally I got out of bed and got dressed. Then I asked Lewis what we were going to be doing then. Lewis told me that I was suppose too learn how to control my powers, but I knew that.
An hour later Lewis brought me to this place, I had no idea where we were. Finally I asked him where we were. He told me not to worry about it. So then Lewis told me to sit down. I didn’t want too but I did as he told me too. Then all of a sudden I was under a spell. I ended up floating in the air. I was freaking out. I didn’t know what else to do. I just looked at Lewis and he knew that I wanted to know what was going on. He didn’t say anything. I wanted to yell at him but nothing came out of my mouth. I didn’t know what was going on. Next thing I know I’m falling to the ground.

Random Thoughts 71

Hey! Just figured I'd drop in and say hey. I can't believe that everyone is almost done with school now. I can't believe that monday is my one year anniversary for being married. Like seriously where does time go? I don't know. But anyways... this weekend I went to a wedding. My father-in-law finally got married. It was boring until later that night. I did the stupidest thing ever. Like seriously. I drank until I puked. Not the smartest thing I ever did. the good news though, I only puked in my purse. Bad news, I ruined everything in there. I finally said forget it, I don't want this stuff anymore. At least I didn't have anything real important in there. It just sucked. I never want to drink that much again. I didn't even really want to get wasted. But then someone asked me to get wasted with them and I said yes. Stupidest think I could have done. But at least I learned that now instead of later when I could be drinking and end up pukingh while I was sleeping and choke on it. Right? Yea. I thought so. But anyways... g2g

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Hey! Just droppin another line. and for the person that left a comment on my random thoughts 69 blog i've only been out of work for like 3 weeks. it'll be 3 weeks this monday. ha ha ha. love ya lots though. Anywho.... has any one ever thought something then it backfired on them? Well I just had that happen to me. I was kinda dating someone but I figured that it was over for a while. and as most of you know i'm bisexual so i wasn't cheating on my husband he knew about it. but anyways.... I figured maybe they would still have feelings for me. I was wrong. I guess that i was just hoping that they would still have feelings for me. I don't know. Life goes on I guess. I've made it this far without that person so hopefully I can keep living my life without that person in my life again. I wish her the best of luck though. but anyways.... thats my bad news for today. Hope that no one else is going to be having a pretty good day. I know that my day will get better later. I guess that I'm going to end my blog here. I will post more later or something. And hpefully I will get the powercord to my laptop again so I will be posting my stories again.

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Random Thoughts 69

Hey! Well I went back to where I did work and asked if I could get my job back and they told me no. Which sucked. I really wanted it back but it's not going to happen. So I'm going to be moving to somewhere that I might acctually be able to get a job with in a couple of weeks. Maybe in a couple of days. I hope. Anywho... This is random thoughts 69.... okay I know you all were thinking it too.... LOL!!! Sorry bad joke I know. But hey it's all good. I got told by someone, if you don't have any fun then your going to go insane. That person was right. Although I'm pissed at that person. But thats not important. I hope that everyone is doing okay. I can't wait to see everyone again.

~to a random friend~ stop in. I'm home all the time now. Or at least call me sometime. That would be nice. It's not like I have anything better to do with my time.

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Random Thoughts 68

Hey! It's been almost 2 weeks since I've had a job. It sucks too. I'm ready to get back to work. I hate just sitting around not being able to depend on anything. I loved my job because I knew that I could depend on myself. I'm so thinking about going back to beg for my job back. Only because I know that I was making good money there and whatever. But now because of my stupidity I lost my job. Stupidest thing I could have done. So I'm hoping that if I go back to where I worked and ask the manager if I can have my job back, hopefully I'll get it back. I don't care if I have to start over there. I just want my job back. I hate being at home all the time. I put my name in somewhere else but they haven't called me back yet so I have no idea if I'm going to get the job or not. It's been almost 2 weeks since I put my name in. I guess that my problem is I want my old job back and I don't know if I will be able to get it back. I hope that I can. I'm sure you don't really want to hear about my problems but this is the only spot that I can put it so that everyone will know how I'm feeling.

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Random Thoughts 67

Hey! Most of you haven't heard. I lost my job. It was all because I asked them if I could switch my shift with someone so that I could take my husband back to north carolina, because he missed his plane. But my "boss" told me that if I didn't show up for my shift that it was an automatic quit. So I lost my job because of a family emergency. And most of you know that he's in the military. If he didn't go back then they would consider him a-wall and end up in prision for a long time. So I thought that was more important then going to work. I think that it's bull shit because I lost my job. But whatever. I'm looking for a new job now. Hopefully I'll be able to find one. I mean I liked working where I did but I hated it at the same time. I don't know. I'm kinda bummed out because I lost my job but I'm happy because I don't work there anymore. People have told me that I could go beg for my job back but I really don't want to. I think I got a long with a couple of people there. Whatever. So I'll just look for a new job when I acctually get a chance. I've been so busy lately that it's not even funny. But anyways... I'm gunna go. Thats my bad news of the week.

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Random Thoughts 66

Hey!Just droppin in to say hey! I can't believe this is Random Thoughts 66 already. Like seriously. I remember when I started random thoughts. I didn't have a title for one of my blogs and it was just a random bunch of stuff that I had written that day. Isn't that funny?But anyways... I was workin on a new story, until my puppies decided that they were going to chew on my power cord and completely destroy it. Thats okay though. I can just go get a new one on friday. Then I can probably start writting again. I've been writting a lot in my notebook that I have. But it's just my diary. No new stories. My husband is coming home on friday, but I have to work. I wasn't suppose too but because they were short handed I said that I would work on friday. Thats just more money in my pocket. At least I won't have too work this weekend. Anywho.... I hope that everyone is having a good day. I know that my day is getting a little better. I finally got to catch up on some sleep. But I don't think that I don't really have anything to talk about.

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Random Thoughts 65

Hey! Just droppin in to say hey. Not a whole lot has been going on in my life. Just mostly work. I can't wait to get my pay check this week. Like seriously. I worked 12 1/2 hours in one day. it sucked ass but I manged. Then I had to be at work at 7:00 the next morning. So I crashed at my suporvizors house. Yea.... That was a little weird. Like seriously. Then when I went on break the next day, my mom had called. I knew I had forgotten something. I forgot to call my mom and let her know that I was staying at my suporvizors house. I felt like a dumb blonde that night. So I had called her at work. Cuz by the time I went on break she was going to be at work anyways. But then everything went okay. Well almost everything. After I got back from break something happened and it sucked. I ended up bawling but that was okay because someone I work with told me that it was going to be okay and comforted me for like the rest of the day. It was cool. So I know that when I'm at work and they are there I know that everything will be okay. As long as I can get everything done that I need too. Then something else happened and it was really weird. So I'm just thinking to myseflf.... uh.. okay this is aquakward. cuz it was. Like seriously. But everything is good now. So there is an update on my life. Pretty boring if you ask me.

~hearts~
me

Random Thoughts 64

Hey! I got good news... Dipstick made it. He's going to be okay. He just has to learn to stay outta stuff now. I was kind of surprised that he made it. Oh well at least he made it. He was really bad but he's doing a lot better now. Which is good I think. I don't really have much to say today. Work is going okay. I guess. I mean some of the people there aren't bad. One of the guys there is something else. I'm not even really sure what to call it. But anyways... theres an update on my life. Pretty boring huh? I thought so.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 63

Hey! As most of you know all I do anymore is work. Well work is going okay. For the most part. Someone got fired but thats for reasons only work needs to know. Anyways... not a whole lot more is going on. We might be losing another puppy. I mean he's doing okay right now but we don't know if he'll make it through the rest of the day. This time it's dipstick. Yes we have named all of our puppies. There's Loner, Dipstick, Toughy, Broke Tail, Bart, and Stripe. We had 8 puppies but 2 of them died recently. Anyways... enough with the sadness. Well theres not a whole lot going on in my life except for work really. So I guess that I'm going to go.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 62

Hey! As most of you know I've been working. So I haven't been posting as often. But as of today, we're losing another puppy. Troublemaker got sick this morning and I don't think that he's going to make it through the rest of the day. It kills me to say it but I really don't think that he's going to make it. Not this time. But on the brighter side of life... the rest of our puppies are doing okay. And for most of you who don't know... I lost my puppy about a week ago. I can't believe that it's been that long already. I miss her like I really do but for the most part, I know that she lived a good life. I know that she is in a better place now and doesn't have to suffer anymore. Yes I'm still heart broken over her dying but I know that her life was lived out well. I have no regrets for her life. As I won't for the rest of the puppies. But yea... I don't really have anything else to say.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 61

Hey! Look in my last blog I was dealing with a lot of shit. Like I had just gotten home from work and my puppy had died then I got told that I was going to get anything from the military and that I couldn't get benifits from work until I've been there for six months. So what I'm trying to say is that I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to blow up in my last blog and affened anyone. But as far as I'm concerned I did grow up. And I'm really sorry, mostly to Beth, because of all the shit that I pulled. I shouldn't have takin it out on you. I hope that we can work everything out and when you come home again... if I'm still around, I would like to take you out or something. I really hope that you do get to see Andrew again though, cuz from the sounds of it you guys make a great couple and from the pictures that I've seen. I guess that my issue was that I felt like I was the third wheel in our friendships. I really didn't mean to blow up though. Like I said I was just going through a lot of shit that day. I hope that we can stay friends. It means a lot to me to acctually be friends with you. But anyways... I do have to work tomorrow. I start work at 6:30 am. which sucks but ya know... it's a job at least.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 60

Hey! Just wanted to let everyone know that this blog is gunna be me bitching about everything that is going on. So if you don't want to read it then don't. I won't be affened at all.
Okay. So heres what happened, I was talkin to someone and they told me that they wanted someone to do something with them and I feel like they don't even care about my feelings. Whatever. They don't have to care about my feeling. Cuz at this point they don't have to care about my feelings or me. I just did a ton of shit for them and whatever and I get repaid by having them fuckin blow me off. whatever. I don't even care anymore. I don't need the drama anyways. I'm dealing with a lot of shit too and you make it sound like your whole world is crashing around you. When it's really not. Keep drinking. One of these days your going to die because of it. I hope that makes you happy. And when you do die I'm not coming to your funeral because I'll be the one living where ever and then when I find out I'm going to be like "I fuckin told you so!" One of these days you will realize that you will get over your ex-boyfriend but with me I'm married and I don't get to see my husband at all. Except for when he comes home and he leaves for Iraq in september. How would you feel if you were married and found out that the love of your life wa leaving for Iraq and you won't know if he comes home or not? Deal with that shit. I don't think that you could. I have to deal with it right now. Whatever. I don't even care anymore....

one very pissed off me

Random Thoughts 59

Hey! Some of you know that my puppy died last night, but for those of you who don't know. You know now. So please don't bring it up. I'm still recovering. I'm working on getting over it. Work has been good. I mean it's not that bad. I just don't like some of the people that I work with but you'll get that. But yea not a whole lot has been going on. The worst part of my night was that my puppy Monica died. I bawled for like 2 and a half hours. I couldn't help it. She died right in my arms which didn't make it any better. I don't know what happened but she was having seisures and then she died. It was heart breaking. I couldn't help myself. But yea. I think that I'm going to go before I start bawling again.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 58

Hey! Not a lot is happening. Just work basically. I was not to happy with my pay check this week but I'll get over it. I went shopping today and next week I only work 4 days. Which sucks but whatever. At least this is my last week of training. Which is a good thing. I can't wait until I get done with all of my training. But yea... Not a whole lot has been going on in my life. I don't really talk to anyone anymore. I mean I still hang out with some friends but other than that I don't really do anything. isn't my life interesting? I didn't think so. So to all of my friends out there reading this I'm really sorry that my blog is starting to suck but I do work. Like all the time. And for those of you reading this someof u should stop drinking. Even if you think that telling us that u don't drink then your pathetic. Like seriously. Stop the drinking because if you don't then ur going to die. And I know what ur thinking "well u smoke and thats going to kill you." But I don't care if I die from smoking. I care more about my friends then anything else.

~hearts~ me

Random thoughts 57

Hey! WOrk is going well. Every day after work I go tanning though. Which is cool. I can't wait until friday. I get my next pay check. I can't wait for it. But anyways... I've had my days at work where I just don't want to be there but it's cool. I am still learning things at work but I'll get the hang of it sooner or later. But yea I don't really have anything to say so I'm gunna go.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 56

Hey! Just droppin in and sayin Hi to everyone. Work is going really good. I mean it's not the best job in the world but a pay check is a pay check to me right now. I can't wait until I get enough money to move. I have a little bit saved. I mean I want to go to england too. I will eventually. I'm still going for my birthday though. I can't wait. I'm so excited. I know that I'm suppose to be saving money to move out of my moms house and I will be. but I also am going to be saving money so I can go to England. But anyways... I think that I'm going to go.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 55

Hey! Today started off to be a really bad day but it's gotten better. I finally got paid today. I'm so proud of my pay check. No I'm not going to tell you how much it is either. Well today started out really bad but it's getting better. I have a pounding headache but I took some meds for it. I just have to wait like 20 minutes before it kicks in. Which sucks but I'll get over it. Okay, today I had to do something for my manager and I did but made a huge ass mess of it. Then some lady started having seiuzures in my work. They had to call an ambulance and everything. Then I started taking orders at work... (cuz ya know I work in a restraunt) and completely screwed them up. It was just a bad day. Then I ended up staying and extra 15 minutes at work tonight. Not that I wanted too. But I did. Then I got home and things started to get better. So now I'm just at home relaxing before I have to go back to work on Sunday. But yea. Just figured I'd let everyone know how my day went. It wasn't a good one. I mean it started off like any other day. But as the day went on it just got worse. At least I didn't break a dish at work. That would have really sucked.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 54

Hey! Work is still going really well. I can't wait until I get enough money to move out of here. As soon as I have enough I'm gone. I don't know where I'm going yet, but I'll let everyone know as soon as I get there. I love my family to death. I really do but with all of the drama thats getting started again I need to get out before it gets too bad. I hope that when everything goes downhill, that I'm not around for it. I love you guys to death. I do really. I just don't need anymore stress in my life than what I already have. I think this is where I'm gong to end my blog here. I will post another one real soon.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 53

Hey! I know that most of you are wondering why my blog went from random thoughts 51 to 53 well it's because I screwed up. My last post was suppose to be random thoughts 52 and I'm an idoit and screwed up. It was probably because I was really tired and didn't really want to think about anything. I'm off work today. Which is cool. I'm learing a lot more. I mean I already know a lot of stuff at work. I still have to learn how to do the drive through thing but thats just about all I have left. Which isn't bad. I think that I'm really starting to like work. I have days where I don't really want to be there but it's getting better. Like they have a lot of rules there but I think that it's a good structure. I mean I should be looking for a place to live just about now but I don't really care. Anyways... Hope to hear from everyone.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 51

Hey! Work is going really well. I finally have a day off. Which is today. Then I have to go back to work tomorrow. I'm looking forward to going back to work. I know I said that it was a lot of work and it is but I like being busy instead of just standing around. I have to learn a lot of stuff but it's all good. I'm still learning but I'm getting the hang of it. One of the girls that I work with told me that I'm learning about some of the stuff a lot faster than some of the people that were there. Which is kinda cool. I guess that I learn a lot faster than I thought I did. Anyways... Not a whole lot has been going on except that I got a job and I like it so far. I think that I'm going to go. I have to get stuff done anyways and it's already 4:30. yay.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 51

Hey everyone! Iknow I haven't posted anything in a while but I'm working now and it's hard work. But at least I'm doing something with my life now. I'm glad that I got the job that I'm working at. I might have another job starting tomorrow. So yea I'm going to be pretty busy. I don't know when I'll post again after this. I'll post again and let you guys know how I'm doing. RIght now I'm just really tired. So I'm going to go.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 50

Hey! I told everyone yesterday that I had an interview today. It went really well. I got the job. I start tomorrow at 10:00 am. I work until 6:00 pm. Which is cool. Then on thursday I start at 7:00 am and work until 3:00 pm. I work those hours for the rest of the week. Thursday through Sunday. I can't wait until I get to work tomorrow. I know that I have to look nice but it's all good. I know that I can look nice. I gotta wait to get my uniform though. Oh well I can't wait any how. But yea thats my good news of the day. I might not be posting as much now because I am going to be working full time. But thats okay. I'm excited.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 49

Hey! I have an interview tomorrow. So hopefully I start working on wed. Then in the next couple of weeks I'm going to get my own place. I'm excited about it. Althought I don't really feel like celebrating anything. I could probably care less about it at this point. I've just had a bad day. It started out really well then as the day progressed it just got worse. Oh well. I'll get over it. I don't really have anything to talk about. I gave everyone my good news already so yea. Theres like nothing else to talk about.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 48

Hey! I'm looking for my own place right now. Everything is good with me. For the most part anyways. I'm stressed out but I'll get over it. I'm still looking for a job. I know that I will get one. As soon as I get some pay checks I'm going to be looking for a place of my own. I won't be very far from home but I will finally be able to say that I'm living on my own and making the most out of it. I guess that in April or something I will be leaving for North Carolina. I will probably end up staying there or I will come back to New York. Depending on what happeneds with my marriage. I mean we're getting along pretty well right now but you never know whats going to happen in the future. I can't wait to get my own place. Maybe I will have a friend of mine come live with me or something. I don't know yet. My life isn't really that interesting at the moment. I will post more when I find something out.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 47

Hey! I might finally have a job. I'm so excited. As soon as I find out that I will have a job then I can finally get a place of my own. It might not be the best place in the world but i don't care. At least I won't have to live with my mom any more. I love my mom to death but I need to get out of her house. I can't wait until I get a place of my own. I'm really excited. I can't wait until I can get everything done and get settled in some place. After I get my own place and whatever then I can finally do what I want and whatever. I will definatally have a party. You better believe that I'm going to have a party. But anyways... not that I'm not so hyped up about all of this I'm going to go.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 46

Hey! To all of those out there. I'm still not sorry for what I said yesterday. I think that you all had the right to know how I felt. I've felt like this for a while but I didn't say anything because I didn't see the point in saying anything. But yesterday was the last straw. I don't really want to get treated like dirt. I've been treated that way my entire life by other kids. I'm not puttin up with it anymore. I do care about my friends and whatever but not if their going to treat me like dirt. I guess thats all I really have to say in this blog.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 45

Hey! I don't know how to start this blog. So I'm just gunna say this straight out and I'm not going to be sorry for a word of it that I say.
Okay, so I thought that today was going to be good. It was until one of my friends showed up and they got invited to something and I didn't get invited. Whatever. After everything that I've done for a couple of people(beth and kami), you guys think that it's okay to just walk all over me. I'm sick of that. Everytime I'm around it seems like you guys want nothing to do with me. What the fuck is that about? I don't care how pissed off your going to be at me. Because finally I'm telling you the truth. I have done nothing but bend over backwards for you. And all I get in return is shit kicked in my face. It's not fair. So you two can be happy together but once I'm gone your going to wish that none of this shit would have happened. So the only thing that I have to say to you both is FUCK YOU! I really thought that we could all be friends but ever since, u, beth went to college you changed and not for the better. You use to tell me everything and didn't have a problem with it. But apperently I'm not that important in your life. so whatever. Go to hell for all I care.
Kami, I know that we haven't been the best of friends. But I wish that we could have had a good friendship like you and beth have. But I don't think that you like me that well. Everything I told you I ment. For all I know you could sercretly hate me, but you only deal with me because of Beth. Well after this blog I don't think that you have to worry about it anymore. I don't think that you'll want to talk to me anymore. I don't think that beth is going to want to talk to me either. Well fine. Hope that you have a good life.

One very pissed off girl

Random Thoughts 44

Hey! Most of you know that I finally finished my story. I was in Ohio for three weeks. I had no internet access. My husband and I are doing fine. We're still not living together but we will be sometime. In October I'm going to England. I'm going to find a job with in the next week or so. Then I might be moving to Ohio. Not a whole lot more has gone on in my life. Just figured that everyone would want to know. Hopefully everyone is doing okay. Can't wait to hear from you all.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughs 43

Hey! This is my post where I'm posting my story finally. Give me some feed back on it.


One day in college a couple of boys decided that they wanted to have a food fight but didn’t want to start it. It was their last year at college and they wanted to go out with a bang. So they paid a couple of freshman to start the food fight. Mashed potatoes started flying everywhere. Gravy and meat started flying next. Rolls and butter, and green beans were everywhere. The dean of the college got wind of this and grabbed everyone that pitched in to pay the freshmen and made them stay after school to clean the cafeteria.
When they all showed up there were people already there. They were already there because they volunteered to help clean up everything. They became friends and started hanging out more. Their names were Jenny, Todd, Julia, Cristi, Lynn, Tristen and Benji.
One night a bunch of friends, Jenny, Todd, Michael, Julia, Cristi, Lynn, Tristen and Benji were hanging out and they decided that they wanted to listen to music but it was 12:00 in the morning and they didn’t want to wake up their neighbors. So Todd turned on the music but it was really low. Michael was complaining because the music wasn’t loud enough. So Jenny told everyone that she had a place of her own and that it was so far out in the woods that no one would hear the music, and they could have it up as loud as they wanted. Todd turned off everything in his apartment and they all went to Jenny’s place. Michael, Todd, Tristen, Benji, Julia, and Cristi thought that Jenny was lying about the whole “she lived in the middle of nowhere thing,” because the last time that they were told that they found out that the girl was lying and that she lived in the middle of a big city. When they started to get closer they discovered that Jenny wasn’t lying. Cristi, Julia, and Lynn got scared. Michael and Todd told them not to worry and that they would protect them. They pulled in to the driveway and got out of the car. While they were looking at the house, they thought at first it looked like it was only a one-story house with a garage but as they got close they discovered that it was a two-story house. The house looked like it was abandon. The garage that looked like no one had used in years. The porch was up really high and had a railing that went all the way around it. The house had weeds that were almost 3 feet high in the front yard. It looked like something in a horror story everyone thought. Jenny told everyone to wait a minute. So everyone waited outside for a couple of minutes while she went to go turn on the lights. While they were waiting they thought that they heard something in the weeds. The porch light came on. Then everyone started walking up the stairs to go inside the house. As they got a closer look at the porch they discovered that it needed some fixing up and they understood why Jenny had told everyone to wait a minute because if you stepped in the wrong spot then you were going to fall through the floor and hit the ground. As they walked through the door, they looked around and found out that the house was a lot bigger than they thought it was. After they were all in Jenny said that they should wait in the living room while she went to grab snacks and soda for everyone. She pointed to where they were supposed to go to get there. The house was huge and she didn’t want anyone getting lost. They all said okay. Michael asked her if her cd player was in the living room. Jenny said yes. So Michael, Cristi, Julia, Lynn, Todd, Tristen, and Benji headed into the living room. While Jenny headed into the kitchen. Jenny was thinking that these are the people that said I had lied to them and they thought that I lived in the middle of a big city where I had a ton of neighbors. Which she knew that wasn’t true the people that were giving them a ride took them to their house and not hers. She had dyed her hair and changed her name and went back to that school. Jenny then walked back in to the living room. Everyone was really nice to her when she walked in.
Michael turned on some music. It was really loud. Cristi thought that they were being watch. She had mentioned it to Todd. But Todd told her not to worry about it because they were in the middle of nowhere and no one even knew they were there. Lynn had gone up the stairs because she wanted to check out the house. No one had noticed for an hour. When everyone finally noticed they went looking for Lynn. But of course they couldn’t find her. The last place they looked was in the bathroom. As soon as they opened the door they saw that blood was everywhere. Jenny, Todd, Michael, Cristi, Tristen, Benji, Julia saw that Lynn was dead. They didn’t know who did it but they had a feeling that it was someone in the house. They started to not trust each other. They all started pointing fingers at each other. They blamed one another for the murder. Cristi told everyone else that she thought they were being watch all night long and she thought that they should get out of there before anything else happened. They called the police. They all had to go to the police station and get asked questions. The police asked them questions. None of them could tell the police what had happened to Lynn.
The next day Michael, Julia, Cristi, Todd, Tristen, Benji and Jenny were watching the news and they discovered that Lynn had been murdered. They didn’t know what to think. They all blamed themselves for what had happened. If they had noticed sooner that Lynn had disappeared then this would have never happened. They had all gone to her funeral since they knew that they should be there anyways. It was kind of their fault that she was dead.

A month had gone by and they all got together again. They went to a party. The same thing had happened again. It was about the same time that it had happened the last time. Only this time the two people that were there didn’t make it out alive. They found one of the girls in the bathroom covered in blood. They found the other girl in the hallway behind a really tall plant facing the wall.
The next day they went back. Everyone wanted to find out why it was happening and who was doing it. So they all stayed the night there. They figured that would be the only way that it would happen again. Sure enough they found Cristi had been murdered but only this time she was shoved in the garage door. They thought that this was weird. But as the looked closer they found a note pinned to her shirt. The note said, “Leave this house or all of you are going to die.” They didn’t know what to think. But they wanted to know who or what was doing this anyways. Everyone thought that it was a ghost that wanted revenge on who ever slept there. One of the guys just thought that it was a crazy old man that moved out of the house and then she moved in and now he wants his house back. But everyone agreed that it was just a ghost that wanted everyone out of the house because they had disturbed his resting place or something.
As the girl that owned the house started to think about it she had been told stories about the house and how it was haunted by a ghost that lived in the house and didn’t want anyone there but she moved in anyways thinking that nothing of the non-living would kill her for living there. She figured that if it’s just a ghost that it would try and swing something at her and it would just go right through her and not do anything to her. It was a ghost for crying out loud. But since she has seen everything she was thinking that maybe she should get outta the house before she dies. But she promised everyone that she would stay there and help find the thing that is doing all this.
So everyone stayed in the house until they could figure out what was going on. Three days had gone by and no one else was killed. No one new why. They figured if they left and went back that this would all happen again. So they all left and two days later they went back. But nothing happened. So they all left for a month. In that month they basically fell apart and stopped hanging out. But they all made a day to go back to that house. So the day had come and they all went back to the house. They were only there for a couple of hours. They all decided that they wanted to go out and eat some food and grab some snacks and soda since they were going to be there for a while. After they ate and went shopping they went back to the house. When they got back it looked like someone had broken into the house. They walked inside and everything was trashed. So before they did anything they cleaned up the house. They did as much as possible to make it look like no one had broke in. No one thought anything of this because it happens all the time. They have had to help their other friends clean up their apartments because of a break in. So after they finished cleaning up they turned on some music. They all had invited a couple more friends that they thought were cool. It’s about 7:30 at night and they have pretty much listened to everything they own. So she suggested that they turn on the television and see whats on. So they do that. Then someone says that they have to go to the bathroom, they kind of look at each other weird. They know what happened in the bathroom. So they let their friend go to the bathroom. They don’t say anything about what happened. But she pulls a side them and tells them what she’s heard about the house and explains why she didn’t tell them sooner. All of a sudden they hear a loud scream and then a really loud thud. Everyone races up the stairs to see what happened. They open the bathroom door, to their surprise theres no blood. They take their friend down stairs and sticks a cold washcloth on her forehead. When she comes too they ask her what happened and she tells them that she saw a giant zit on her face and passed out from it (when the truth really is that she was messing around with her boyfriend and the condom broke. She took a pregnancy test and it came back positive). Everyone rolled their eyes and walked away. After all that they put the music back on. The owner of the house had a huge headache and went upstairs to lie down. Which she discovers that someone is in her room. So she opened the door and discovered that her best friend was having sex with some random guy in her bed on her sheets.
After the little run-in she decides to just go into the bathroom and lock the door. Just so that she can have some privacy from everyone else. The people downstairs realize that she is missing but someone said they saw her walk up stairs. So her boyfriend goes up and check in the bathroom, sure enough she was in there. Her boyfriend knew what had happened. He could tell by the look on her face.
He told her that it was almost 3:00 am after she asked him what time it was. She told him to go down stairs and that she would be down in a minute. Then her best friend knocked on the door and asked if everything was alright. She said yes. Then her friend apologized for what she had done. She’s just like whatever. Shit happens.
After that she walked down stairs. Everyone was listening to music again having a good time. She knew something wasn’t right. She knew that someone was missing. She just couldn’t figure out who it was. Everyone else was starting to notice too. So they left the music on and went and searched the house for their friend. Of course, Jenny new exactly who it was after a minute and figured out where they were. So she went around the house telling everyone that she knew where the missing person was and that she would go get them. She walked up the stairs and opened her bedroom door and discovered that she had been murdered. She just thought, “oh god, not again.” There was another note. This time is read, “I know you were mad about what happened in here and I took care of it.” Jenny went and showed Benji and he told her that he had no idea what that was about. She made everyone leave. Benji stayed behind to make sure that Jenny didn’t go to school. Then she called the police and demanded that they find out who did that. The police said that they would do everything in their power to figure out who did it. She didn’t give the police the note though. She thought that it was sweet in a possessed kind of way.
As the days went by she held on to that note. She wondered who wrote it. She couldn’t figure out who wrote it. She wondered if something really was haunting the house and the only reason why it didn’t kill her was because it loved her.
Jenny started thinking and remembered that her x-boyfriend was murdered in this house. She wondered if it was really him doing everything. She thought that it might be him doing it.
The police said that it was a weird way that they all died, because they all died the same way. The police said they died from their insides bursting. But they said that it looked like they had just been stabbed through the heart and they bled to death. But the one girl, Lynn, it looked like she had been shot in the head but we didn’t find any bullet or anywhere that it penetrated anything in the house.
Jenny thought this over and thought then maybe it was someone in the house and that someone lied to the police. But there was no bullet. That’s the only problem. Maybe she took her own life or something and made it look like she shot herself in the head. Or tried to make it look like she shot herself in the head. Which apparently she did a good job of it. As she thought of it more she thought that it was an ice bullet that killed her. That way it looked like she got shot in the head but theres no bullet because it would melt and there would be no evidence. As she stood in front of the police, she didn’t say anything about how her friend died.
Michael, Julia, Tristen and Benji are the only ones left in the group. Benji was dating someone, but after he invited her up she died. It was Jenny’s friend that got shot in the head. Jenny was jealous of her friend that was dating Benji. Jenny never said anything about it though.
A couple of months later, Jenny told Benji that her friend had cheated on him and that she deserved to die. Benji didn’t think that she deserved to die. After that Benji was kind of creeped out by Jenny. Jenny got mad because she wanted to date him but he wouldn’t go out with her.
Later that night everyone went to Jenny’s house and had a party. As the party progressed everyone was drinking except Jenny. Benji was pretty out of it and ended up sleeping with Jenny. He thought that it was his ex-girlfriend that had died two months earlier.
Jenny wanted revenge on everyone that was at the party, because she had a flashback of what had happened before she left college and came back a whole new person.
She didn’t remember any of that until Benji said that he was going to stay behind and protect her. That was what he had said to her the same night that everyone pretty much ditched her. Then the next day at school everyone stopped talking to her and talked about her behind her back. She felt like all of her friends had stabbed her in the back. So she packed up all of her stuff from the college and moved to a different town. Then she dyed her hair, changed her name, got a nose job, the whole nine yards just so that no one would know that it was her.
So when the police arrived Jenny and Benji told them everything. Benji had sobered up a little bit before they came. Benji remember parts of the party so what he could remember he told the cops. Jenny filled the cops in on the rest of went on. She knew what had happened between her and Benji.
The next day Benji asked Jenny what had happened between them last night. She told him everything. He couldn’t believe it. He didn’t remember anything about that night except for the beginning of the party. He was shocked that he thought that Jenny was his dead girlfriend. Benji dated a lot of people. He knew that one of these days he was going to be dating someone and they were going to get murdered.
To this day Benji still doesn’t know how it happened. He keeps trying to figure it out but it’s not working. He knows that she was murdered but he doesn’t know how it happened or who did it.
As the months went on Benji just kind of forgot about the whole murder thing. He gave up trying to figure out how it was done and who had did it. One night he had a dream about his own death. He was at a party and he was talking to someone and they ended up sleeping with each other and then after they were finished she pulled out a knife and killed him. He finally realized who it was. It was Jenny. He knew then who had killed his girlfriend. He didn’t know what to make of it. He kept it to himself. Some of his friends noticed something different about him. They knew something was up but didn’t know how to go about it. After his friends realized that something was wrong with Benji.
Tristen told Benji that there was a party and asked if Benji wanted to come along. Benji was kind of hesitant to say yes at first but then he realized that it was just a stupid dream and that he should go out and have fun. It was his last year in college anyways.
Everyone showed up to the party. Benji started drinking as soon as he got there. He took Jenny upstairs and talked to her for like an hour. Benji asked Jenny why she had killed everyone off. Jenny told Benji that it wasn’t her. She asked him why he asked her that. He explained the dream that he had to her. Then things started to heat up between them. So they ended up messing around and then as soon as they were done Jenny pulled out a knife and murdered Benji. She knew that he had figured out that it was her killing everyone. She didn’t know if he knew why she was doing it but she just knew that he knew that it was her.
Michael and Julia walked in and saw what had happened. Right before she killed them both she brought up the fact that she didn’t lie to them about her place. It was her friend’s place that they went to instead of hers and then Michael and Julia realized who it was. They thought that it was her but they weren’t too sure about it. But before they could say anything Jenny shot them. They fell right on top of each other. Jenny decided to hide the bodies instead of calling the police this time. Only because she knew that they were on to her. So she moved out of town and changed her name, hair color and got another nose job. She was glad that she got the revenge that they all deserved. They treated her like dirt and she kept her emotions bottled up inside her and then when she went back she knew that she was going to get her revenge.
Part 2
A month later it started again, but it was with different people at different times. Finally Jenny figured out that she needed to go to a councilor. So she went to the first councilor that she found. She knew that it wasn’t a private councilor. She knew that if she told the councilor everything that they could call who ever they wanted and that she would end up in jail. She had told her councilor everything. The councilor had called the police right after Jenny left from her first appointment. Jenny figured that something was up. The next time Jenny went in for her appointment the police were there. The police took Jenny in. They arrested her for first degree murder.
While she was in jail Jenny had come to realize that she didn’t know what she was doing with her life. She didn’t realize that she had let her anger get the best of her. Jenny figured out that she needed to quit killing people. She needed to find something to do with her life and learn to let go of all the emotions she held inside of her.
Then she realized that she had killed the one person that ment a lot to her. She had killed the one person that she wanted to marry. She didn’t realize what she was doing until it was too late. The police had been looking for her for months. Finally they caught up to her. Jenny found out that she was pregnant. She didn’t know whose child it was until she started thinking about it. It was Benji’s child. She had went and told the judge that she was pregnant and didn’t know what to do about it. The judge had told her that she would not be allowed to have her baby while she was in jail. She had to give it up for adoption. The baby had gone to a really well raised family. The baby was never going to know his birth mother because no one was going to tell him about her. But he was named after his father.
As time went on and Benji Jr. got older he asked his parents why they named him Benji and they didn’t want to tell him the truth. They told him that it was the name that he had come with. They didn’t know why his name was Benji. By the time Benji was sixteen, he wanted to know the truth. His adopted family had told him that his mothers name was Jenny and his fathers name was Benji and where his mother and father grew up. They didn’t tell Benji that his father was murdered by his mother. Just that his mother went to jail because of something that she had done.
He wondered why he was always dreaming about killing people. He always wanted to just go out and kill all of the people that were mean to him. The same night that his adopted family told him where his birth mother grew up at, he ran away from home. He wanted to see where his mother grew up. So he took his car and went to the town that she lived in. Benji drove the four hundred miles to get to that town. He had heard the story about where she was living. So he went directly to that spot. He figured that no one would even notice that he was gone.
The next morning when his adopted parents went to go get him up for school they realized that Benji was nowhere to be found. They called the police and had them search for him. They started thinking about what they had told him and they didn’t think that he would go all the way out there to see where his mother grew up at. They finally figured out an hour after looking where he had gone. They didn’t think that he would have gone all the way there to see that place. They knew the truth about that place. They didn’t tell Benji because they didn’t want him to freak out and go on a killing spree like his mother.
As Benji was driving he thought to himself maybe I should stay there because it’s almost three o’clock in the morning and it was a long drive and he didn’t want to have to make the same trip in a couple of hours apart with no sleep and that he deserved to know where his mother had grew up at.
Benji had stayed the night at the house. He didn’t think that anything bad would happen. He had drove the four hundred miles to get there he figured that he could stay there for a couple of hours and get some sleep then make the trip back before his parents even knew that he was gone.
Benji walked in and walked around for a while and found a bed and laid down and fell a sleep. Then the next thing he knew he was getting attacked by his parents. He didn’t even have time to explain to them why he had done what he did, but he figured that he was old enough to drive so he should be old enough to know more about his mother. His parents had grounded him anyways. He wasn’t allowed to do anything.
He hadn’t read anything about her. He just knew where she grew up because that was all his parents had wanted to tell him about her. So he figured that he would just check out what they said about his mother at school. He couldn’t wait to get to school. He didn’t know what he was looking for. He knew that she had gone to jail. So he had checked all of the local papers. He knew that her name was Jenny. He had found an article about her. As he read more of it, some things started to become clearer to him. About the dreams he had been having, his mood swings. The way that he wanted to kill people all the time. He didn’t think that it was a bad thing. He thought that everyone had had those kinds of thoughts. As he read more of the article he discovered that not everyone had those kinds of thoughts. He realized that it ran in the family. It was a character trait. Benji didn’t think that it was a good thing that he had gotten that character trait. He wondered what character trait he had gotten from his father. He always felt like he had to be a bad ass. He wondered if that was the trait that he got from his father. Then he discovered that both of his birth parents were dead. He decided that he needed to find out more about his birth father.
As Benji was deciding that he should find out more about his birth father, the bell rang for school to be over. So Benji headed home. He already new that he was grounded but he wasn’t sure of what was going to happen next.
After Benji got home his parents wanted to talk to him. Benji was just like “great what did I do now?” As he walked into the kitchen he was afraid of what he had done. After he got into the kitchen someone was sitting at the table with his parents. He didn’t know what to think. His parents told him to sit down and they would explain everything. So Benji sat down. Benji wasn’t sure of what was happening. As he sat there he waited for his parents to tell him what was going on.
His parents told him that because of the little stunt that he had pulled he had to go to counseling. Benji didn’t know why his parents were making him go to counseling. He sat there waiting for an explanation for a couple of minutes. Then he asked why his parents wanted him to go to counseling. They told him because they want him to go. So he agreed to go.
Benji was at his first appointment and didn’t understand why he was there. Then he got called into the councilor’s room and the councilor told Benji why he was there. They told him that his parents wanted to make sure that he wasn’t crazy. They were afraid that he was going to turn out to be like his birth mother. Benji played dumb and asked the councilor what they ment. The councilor didn’t know how to answer that. They decided to call Benji’s parents. Benji’s parents came in and told Benji the whole truth about his birth mother. After they were done explaining the truth to him, Benji had told them that he had been doing research on his mother anyways. He wanted to know what she was like and if he could figure out some things about his life.
Benji had pulled away from his parents and basically quit talking to them after a while. Benji’s parents had told him that he was adopted at the age of thirteen. After that he quit talking to them. They had basic conversation. They talked about the weather, the day they had (which wasn’t much), and how good supper was that night.
His parents tried to figure out what he ment by that. They didn’t think that he was just like his birth mother. That was the one thing they were afraid of. Finally they figured out that they needed to talk to their son about what had been going on. They needed to figure out why he wanted to know so much about his birth mother, Jenny.
After they got home Benji was sitting at the kitchen table. Benji’s parents asked him why he had walked out of the meeting they were having. He told them that he needed to think about everything. His parents understood that. They knew that telling him would have been a mistake. They didn’t think that he would have done everything that he did. Benji explained to them what he had been doing in school. Then his parents understood. They told him that he should have told them sooner about what he was doing. Benji told them about the dreams that he was having. He also told them that he was afraid of what they would say if he told them that. They told him that it was okay and that they would try to work through everything. Benji make a pack with his parents: Never to keep anything from his parents again.
Part 3
After a while Benji finally realized that he had to move on with his life. He finally realized that he needed to find a girlfriend. So he did that. He knew that he had liked someone for a while from school but he didn’t know how to talk to her. Her name was Alexis. He had been friends with her for a while. Then Benji finally realized that he liked Alexis. He didn’t know how to act around her anymore. He tried to act normal but it didn’t work out too well. Alexis knew that Benji was acting weird. Every time that she tried to ask him what was up he ran from her. She wasn’t sure what was going on.
Benji went home and told his adopted parents what was happening with him and how he couldn’t talk to Alexis anymore. They thought that it was cute that he had gotten a crush on her. Benji never thought that he of all people would get a crush on his best friend. He didn’t know what to think of this. So he asked him mom and dad what he should do. They told Benji that he should ask Alexis out.
The next day at school Benji walked up to Alexis and told her that he was sorry for the way he was acting around her. Alexis asked why he had been acting like that. Benji told her the truth. He told her that he really liked her. Alexis told him that she felt the same way. Benji asked her out Alexis said yes. Benji took Alexis to the movies. She was excited to go. Benji couldn’t wait to pick her up. Alexis didn’t know what she should wear. She knew that it was a date but it was with her best friend. She didn’t know if she should get dressed up or if she should just dress the same way she always did. She called her best gal pal and asked her. Her gal pal told her that she should get dressed up a little bit. So Alexis did.
When Benji showed up to get Alexis, he didn’t know what to think about her getting dressed up. Benji didn’t know if he like Alexis’s new look or not. He just dealt with it though. He wasn’t sure if she was going to change completely. He hoped that she wasn’t going to. He told himself that if she really did change that he wouldn’t go out with her anymore. Only because he liked her the way she was.
The next day at school, Alexis asked Benji what he thought of her outfit from the night before. He told her that he didn’t really like it. Benji was glad that she was in her normal clothes again. Alexis asked Benji what he thought of what she was wearing that day. He said that it was more her than the out fit she was wearing the other night. She agreed with Benji.
Benji and Alexis went out again. Alexis dressed in her normal clothes. Benji approved of that. He really liked her outfit and everything. They went to the movies and afterwards Benji and Alexis went back to Benji’s house. His parents weren’t home. So they stayed in his room. Benji and Alexis fell a sleep. Benji had a dream about killing off Alexis because he found out that she was cheating on him with one of his best friends. He woke up in a cold sweat from it. He didn’t know what to think about it. Alexis felt Benji jump and woke up and asked him what was up. He told her it was just a bad dream.
The next day in school Benji watched Alexis. He didn’t know if the dream was true or not. So he watched her for a the next couple of weeks. Benji didn’t notice anything different about her. So he just figured that the dream wasn’t true. Him and Alexis stayed together. But secretly he watched her every move.
After a while Alexis started to notice that Benji was watching her every move. One night when they were hanging out Alexis asked Benji why he was watching her every move. He told her it was because he had a dream and didn’t know what to think of it. So he flat out asked her if she was cheating on him. She told him no. He said okay and that he would lay off of watching her every move.
After a while, Benji started to trust Alexis again. He did what he told her he was going to do.
A couple of weeks later, Alexis and Benji stopped hanging out as much as they use too. Benji didn’t think anything of it. He knew that Alexis was going to go out for the cheerleading squad and knew that she had practice all the time and by the time she was out of practice that she was going to be really tired. He knew that she wasn’t going to want to do anything. One night Benji decided to call Alexis but her mom said that she wasn’t home. He wondered where she was.
Benji figured out that his dream was true. He got really pissed off and went to go look for Alexis. He found her and asked her what she was doing. She told him that she was just hanging out with some friends from the squad. He said okay and asked her if he could stay and hang out too. Alexis said sure. She was glad that she was hanging out with friends from the squad that night.
A day later Benji figured out that Alexis really was cheating on him with his best friend. He had come home from a long day of work. Working just so that bitch can survive and he walked in on her and his best friend in his bed.
“Benji! You are home early” Alexis had shrieked. That night I broke the bathroom mirror and slit her throat while she was in the shower. Stupid fuckin bitch.
Then Benji panicked. He just killed his girlfriend, the love of his life. The body. What to do with the body? He ran out to the wood stove room and grabbed the wood chopping axe. Back in the bathroom, he viciously attacked the dead body with the axe until her organs and tissues were in little bites. Benji brutally ate the pieces until all that was left in the bath tub was blood stains. He turned the shower on and took the spray hose to wash down the walls to the shower. He looked around the bathroom and saw all of the blood spray. Shit, he thought. He sprayed the hose at the wall, soaking the bathroom. Then thoughts rushed through his head. How could he have really done that. Memories and flash backs crossed his mind. Alexis, his beautiful girlfriend and best friend was dead and he was to blame. Suddenly he felt a pain of remorse and his stomach lurched. He threw himself against the floor and vomited repeatedly into the toilet.
His life had just changed so quickly and there was nothing he could do now. He couldn’t bring Alexis back, she was in his toilet. Benji pulled a bunch of bath towels out of the cupboard closet and rubbed the walls and bathroom floors down.
“Benji” his adopted mother called. His mind raced on what to say as he heard her foot steps getting closer to the bathroom door. “Are you in there?” she asked. He told her yes and she opened the bathroom door. “What did you spill on the carpet?” Benji looked over frantically and saw that the blood had seeped out into the hallway onto his mother’s white carpet.
“I was just trying to clean that up. I was in a hurry to answer the phone and I dropped my glass of red kool-aide. I’m really sorry” Benji lied.
“Oh, I see. don’t worry about it, I got some new carpet cleaner that can get the stain out.” she looked behind him into the bathroom. “Are you sick? Is that vomit?” Benji desperately ran over and threw the seat down and flushed the toilet. “Benji, you’re sweating bullets, what’s wrong?” she asked again.
“Must have eaten something bad at work” Benji said “They passed out these ravioli’s for the workers who forgot their lunches. I was in a hurry this morning with Alexis here” Benji continued to lie.
“Oh, should I make you a Dr.’s appointment?” she asked in a motherly tone.
“No, its probably just an over night stomach bug. I’ll be fine” Benji said.
“Ok. Well I’ll go get that carpet cleaner” she said “And who called?”
“What?” Benji asked.
“You said that you were running to get the phone when you dropped the drink” she said
“Oh yeah. It was aunt Jane. She wanted to know when my birthday was.” Benji said and he wiped the sweat rolling off of his fore head with the sleeve of his shirt.
“Oh, ok. Well let me get that carpet cleaner for you” she said and went out to the kitchen. Benji slowly and cautiously walked over to the toilet and lifted the lid. There in the bowl, was one of Alexis’s blue eyeballs. Benji gasped and slammed the lid down and flushed it again. This had become a living hell.
“Here you are, dear” his mother said and she handed him the bottle of Mr. Clean. Benji took it and walked over to the carpet stain.
“Just use a wet washcloth and scrub at it with the carpet cleaner.” she said.
“Ok” Benji said and he gently poured some of the white powdery stuff on the stain. Then he used one of the wet towels and scrubbed the stain.
When you could no longer see the red mess, Benji threw all of the towels in the dirty laundry hamper and went into his room.
The burden of what he had committed carried on his shoulders for what seemed like an eternity in those few short hours in his room.
“Benji, Alexis’s parents just called. She never came home, have you seen her?” his adopted mother asked, outside his bedroom door.
“No, I haven’t seen her since I left for work this morning. Maybe she went to Ethan’s house” Benji said. Ethan was his old best friends name, before he had fucked his girlfriend on Benji’s bed. As Benji thought more about it, he got even more pissed off and the remorse slowly disappeared.
“Ok. I’ll tell her parents to check there.” his mother said and he heard her foot steps leave the bedroom door. Benji sat up in his bed and started to think up a plan on how to get his revenge on Ethan and pin the murder on him. He shouldn’t have got rid of the body, Benji bet with himself that Alexis had Ethan’s seamen was in Alexis, she was allergic to latex, so she was on birth control. Alexis and Benji had never used condoms when they had intercourse.
“Benji, the phone is for you” his mother said from outside of his bedroom door.
“Ok” Benji said and stood up. He opened the phone and she handed him the phone. “Hello?” he asked into the phone.
“Benji. I’m really sorry about what happened. Alexis’s parents just called here, they cant find her” Ethan said.
“Yea, they called here too. Are you still mad at me Benji?”
“Yea I’m still mad at you. You fucked my girlfriend, and now no one knows where she’s at. Maybe she killed herself. That would have been her best choice. I think personally.”
“Don’t say that. You know that you loved her and now you act like you don’t care at all.”
“Maybe I don’t care anymore. Maybe it was her fault that she fucked up. Actually it was her fault.”
“That’s really cold man.”
“I don’t feel like talking to you anymore. Goodbye.” Benji hung up the phone. Ethan thought that it was rude of Benji to just hang up on him. Ethan understood why Benji was mad at him though. Ethan would be mad too if Benji had done that too him.
Benji was still really pissed off at Ethan for everything that he did. Benji thought that maybe he could pin Alexis’s murder on him. He would just tell the police everything that he did to Alexis and blame it on Ethan. Benji thought this through. He figured out that it wouldn’t work and that he would end up in jail. Benji figured that he would crack under all of the pressure. He would be the one to stand up in court and tell everyone that he was the one that did killed Alexis and ate her then puked it back up in the toilet and flushed the body down into the sewers. He decided not to go to the police. He knew that the police were investigating Alexis’s disappearance. Benji was afraid that if the police started asking him questions that he would just spill everything to them. About how Alexis cheated on him and how it was with his best friend and how he killed her then ate her body and puked it all back up and flushed it down the toilet. After a while the police told Alexis’s parents that they couldn’t recover the body and they didn’t know where to start looking. Alexis’s parents told the police the last place they knew where she was, was at her boyfriends house. (Which was Benji’s house.)
The police asked Benji if he had heard from Alexis in the last couple of weeks. Benji told them no, that he hadn’t heard from her since he went to work the morning before she disappeared. The police checked out his story and it checked out.
Benji was lad that the police stopped questioning him about Alexis’s disappearance. The police started to question Ethan. Ethan told the police that he hadn’t seen Alexis for a couple of days.
After the police questioned Ethan, Benji decided to get his revenge on Ethan for sleeping with Alexis. Benji wanted to kill Ethan but with the police still looking out for who ever killed Alexis he didn’t want to risk anything.
Benji started thinking about what his parents looked like and what Ethan looked like. For some odd reason they looked the same. Benji didn’t know why he thought of this all of a sudden, Benji thought that it was weird.
While Benji was thinking about this his mother wanted to talk to him about something. While she waited for Benji to come downstairs, she knew that she should have told Benji about the child they gave up for adoption a long time a go. Benji finally walked downstairs and asked his mom what was up. She told him everything about the child that she had given up for adoption. She told him that the child they had given up was Ethan. Benji didn’t know what to think of this. He had all of these plans to kill Ethan and now his mom told him that he had a brother and that it was his best friend, that slept with his girlfriend. Benji was pissed that his parents had told him that. He didn’t know what to do now. He wanted to kill Ethan but it was his brother and now his parents knew that it was his brother all along, Benji didn’t want to kill him now.
A couple of months later everyone figured that Alexis was dead so they stopped looking for her. Benji was off the hook. He still remembered that Ethan was his brother. He wanted to kill him off so bad but couldn’t because it was his parents child. Benji was still really pissed. He went and told his parents about what Ethan had done. His parents weren’t too happy about it. They didn’t think that he would have grown up to be like that but they were wrong. Benji didn’t know what his parents thought about it. He knew that they were pissed but that was it. He wanted to know what they thought. Maybe they didn’t know what to think except for the fact that their son they had together and gave up for adoption turned out to be one of the kids that no one could trust.
Part 4
After everything that happened, Benji went off to college and didn’t worry about anything. He didn’t tell anyone about what he did to Alexis. He couldn’t imagine what his parents would have thought about him. Benji knew that they were mad about what Ethan had done. He didn’t know if they would be even madder about what he had done. He didn’t even know what they were thinking at that point. He didn’t want to leave home without knowing but he had to get to college and get moved in before classes started. Benji was excited about going to college. This ment new people, new classes, and a new place to live. Benji and Ethan had a plan to go to the same college but because of everything that happened Benji didn’t know if Ethan was going to go to the same college. Ethan got accepted to a couple of different colleges. Ethan didn’t know what college he was going too.
Benji couldn’t wait to get to his first class. Benji couldn’t wait to get around and do the work that he knew he had to do. He was excited about getting swamped with home work. That way he wouldn’t have to deal with anything. He wouldn’t have to think about everything that happened with Alexis and Ethan and how he killed Alexis. He didn’t really want to think about how he had killed Alexis. It still made him sick to his stomach. Benji wasn’t sure why he had ate Alexis’s body, but he did know that he had to hide the evidence. He did that very well because the police still didn’t know what happened to Alexis. They figured that she was kidnapped and who ever did it took her out of town and killed her. The police knew where there jurisdiction was and they figured that the killer knew too. So they couldn’t do anything about it. Alexis’s parents were really upset afterwards. Benji really didn’t want to think about it but that was all he could do. He still couldn’t believe he was the one that did it and that he actually got away with it.
As Benji was unpacking his stuff, he found something that Alexis had given him when they were together. It said “I will love you forever and always.” Benji decided to throw that away. He should have known that it was a lie. He should have known that his dream was going to be true. He really didn’t want to believe that his dream was real. He should have known not to trust Alexis. Benji knew that Alexis had a crush on Ethan but didn’t want to admit it. Benji saw that Alexis had a crush on Ethan since they were little. Benji thought that as they got older that the crush would go away. Benji was wrong. He had to admit though that he was jealous of Ethan. Benji always wanted Alexis to look at him like she looked at Ethan.
Benji concentrated on getting the rest of his stuff unpacked, instead of the past. Benji knew that he had to concentrate on the future. He figured that his mother got away with killing people for a long time and figured that he only killed one person. He didn’t know how his mother dealt with the pain of killing people or how she got over that she killed the one person that she loved. It wasn’t like he could ask her, she was dead. “Speaking of that” Benji thought to himself, “I should find out where she’s buried at and go see her grave and see if anyone has left anything for her.”
He figured that no one would have left anything. He knew that his birth mother, Jenny, killed off all of her friends. Benji really didn’t want to turn into his birth mother. But with the way he was thinking and what he was doing he was well on his way to becoming like his birth mother. Benji was afraid of everything. He really didn’t want to let people into his life, because if he did he was afraid of what would happen to everyone that he let get close to him. So he just had a few people that he talked too. Benji didn’t really hang out with anyone.
Benji was swapped with homework but he knew that he had to call his mom. He didn’t know if he could get everything done. He had a five page paper to write and he had three other projects to do by the next day. He knew that he shouldn’t have slacked off like he did but he couldn’t manage to get any sleep at night. Ever since he got to the dorm, he could only think about what had happened between Ethan and Alexis and what he had done to Alexis. Well Benji while still dwelling on Alexis’s demise and him needing to call his mom he decides to lay down on his bed and think on what to say to his mom and thinking on what he had done to Alexis and thinking why, while knowing yet still wondering why. Benji decided to call his mom and tell her about his grades and homework. His mom while disappointed talks about something else trying not to get angry or yell she said to him Benji try doing your work you wouldn’t believe what would happen well after Benji talked to his mom he went for a walk to ponder on what has and is happening to him and others around him especially Alexis, he still could not believe what he did to her then he began to think about his mother and how he is turning into what he hates so much. He decided to sit down on a bench that he walked by and with it being fall not freezing but small cold chills of wind. Benji closed his eyes for a few seconds catching himself trying not to fall asleep so he gets up and heads back to his dorm and of all people he runs in to Ethan and instead of spear tackling him to the ground and tearing him apart ligament by ligament Benji decided to just say “hi” and ask how things are going hoping that Ethan dose not bring up Alexis and make him act weird to make suspicions, thankfully he didn’t and left soon after his answer and I made it back to my dorm and went to bed with terrible dreams of him and his ex-girlfriends torn, body parts being puked out of his stomach. The next morning wondering how he stayed asleep through the horrific memory, with the thought of him morning the death and murder of Alexis.
Benji didn’t know what to do about the memory. He didn’t really want to talk to his mom about the memory. Benji just went to class and ignored everything that had happened. He just did his homework and didn’t think about what was going on. While he was working on his homework someone came and knocked on the door. Benji didn’t really want to answer it but he figured that it might be someone important. Benji got up to answer the door. To his surprise it was Ethan. Benji wondered why Ethan was there.
Benji asked Ethan what he was doing there. Ethan told Benji that his mom called him and asked him to check up on him. Benji didn’t think that he needed to be checked up on but Benji welcomed the company. While Benji and Ethan were talking about everything Benji was plotting to kill Ethan.
Part 5
Benji knew that he wanted to kill Ethan because of everything that had happened. He couldn’t wait to kill off Ethan but Benji knew that Ethan was his brother. That was the biggest problem. Benji didn’t want his mom to know that he was plotting to kill Ethan. Every time Benji saw Ethan all the anger came back to him. Benji kept plotting though. Benji had to make it look like he didn’t do it. He had to find someone to blame it on. Benji thought to himself “Maybe I should just hire a hit man. That way no one can link the murder to me.” Benji wanted Ethan dead. That much he was sure of. Ethan showed up to Benji’s dorm room almost everyday.
Ethan thought that everything between the both of them was peachy. Ethan didn’t know that Benji was plotting to kill him. Benji finally decided on how he was going to kill Ethan.
Benji was going to get Ethan wasted then he was going to make him take a bunch of pills and make him OD. Then just send him on his way and that way no one can link the murder to him. Benji just had to figure out away to throw a party with a lot of alcohol and not get in trouble for having it. Maybe Benji would just tell Ethan that they should celebrate being friends again. That way it would just be the two of them that way there wouldn’t be any witnesses. Benji had to think of when to do it. Benji thought to himself, “maybe I should do it this weekend.” That way he’ll be dead by Monday and no one will know what happened. Maybe it will take them a few days to find him then when they try to figure out how he died they will realize that he OD’d on pills. Ethan was known as the party guy around campus. Which was a great thing to Benji.
Benji called Ethan and wanted to know what he was doing this weekend. Ethan told him nothing really. So Benji asked Ethan if he wanted to come over to celebrate their friendship. Ethan said okay.
The plans were made. This way Benji could find something to kill off Ethan and it would take a while for it to kill him. That way Ethan could be in his dorm room when he died.
The time finally came when Benji would get his revenge on Ethan. Benji started off giving Ethan alcohol. It didn’t take long for Ethan to get smashed. Then Benji told Ethan to take some pills, so Ethan did. Then Ethan said that he had to head home. He had stuff to do. Benji said okay and walked Ethan home. As Benji was walking back to his own dorm he had the satisfaction of knowing that he killed Ethan and finally got his revenge.
A couple of days later Benji called his mom. He asked her if she’s heard from Ethan at all. She told him no. He said okay. Benji decided to make sure that Ethan was dead and went to check on him in his dorm room. If Ethan was dead then Benji would call it in and sound really depressed about it. Benji found Ethan dead on his dorm room floor. Benji called the police and explained to them what had happened that night and that Benji walked him home and nothing seemed wrong and then didn’t hear from him again. Benji told the police that he didn’t know what happened after that.
Benji realized that he killed his only sibling that he knew because of something stupid. Benji wasn’t sure of how to deal with that. He wished that his birth mother was around so that he could ask her, but he figured that if she was around then none of this would have happened. Benji also realized that he was turning out to be just like his birth mother. Benji finally decided to go visit her grave it was only a couple of minutes away. Benji wanted so much that he couldn't handle all of it. He wasn't sure of how to do anything anymore. So he went to go visit his mothers grave. When he got there he wasn't sure where it was exactly but he had to see her, well her grave at least. Before he went to go see her grave he went and bought a bunch of flowers to leave there.
Benji went to Jenny's grave. He wasn't sure what to expect. When he got there he noticed that someone else had left flowers for her. Benji thought that this was strange because he had gotten told that Jenny killed off everyone that she ever cared about and that she didn't have any family left. Benji was wondering who had left the flowers for his birth mom. He figured that he shouldn’t dwell on it too bad. When he got back to his dorm room there was a note on his door. It was left by his mom.
It read: “Benji as soon as you get in call me. We need to talk. Love you lots. Mom” Benji was afraid of what was going on. So he decided to call his mom.
“Hi mom. I got your note.”“Hi Benji. I’m glad that you got my note.”
“Did you leave flowers on my mothers grave earlier today?”
“Yes. Why?”
“Because I went up there to do the same thing and I had gotten told that she killed off all of her friends and that all of her family was gone.”“Oh. So you did listen to me, when I was telling you about your mother.”“Yea I listened to you. But anyways what’s up?”
“Oh, right. I was only calling you to tell you how Ethan died. I figured that you would want to know.”“You know already?”“Yea. His mom called us this morning.”“Oh. So how did he die?”“Drug overdose. His parents didn’t think that he had a problem and they didn’t know that he was doing all sorts of drugs or drinking alcohol.”“Oh. That’s too bad that he had to die like that.”
“Yes I know sweetie. Do you want to come home and talk about everything?”“No that’s okay. I think I can make it through the rest of the semester. I only have two weeks left, but if it gets too hard then I’ll come home.”
“Okay sweetie.”
“Okay mom. I’ll talk to you later.”“Okay. Oh wait.”
“What?”“I have other news.”
“Okay.”“Your going to have another brother or sister.”
“I’m what??”“Yep.”
“Wow what news. First bad news the really good news. That should help me make it through the rest of the semester.”
“That’s a good thing though right?”
“Yea mom.”
“Okay sweetie I’ll talk to you later.”
“Okay bye mom.”
“Bye.”
After Benji hung up the phone he wasn’t sure what to think about this news. He hoped that his little brother or sister didn’t turn out to be like him. He was excited about getting a new little brother or sister. He was just afraid that they would turn out to be like him. Benji didn’t want to tell anyone about his good news. Especially after what happened to Ethan.
As the days went by Benji was more and more excited about getting a little brother or sister. Everyone that was around Benji knew that something was up. They didn’t know what it was then they remembered that Ethan had killed himself. They knew that Ethan was Benji’s best friend. They thought that Benji was depressed because of it. No one knew that Benji was the one that killed Ethan. Benji didn’t want anyone to know that he had killed Ethan. Benji wanted everyone to think that Ethan had killed himself. Benji was turning into his birth mother. Which was something he didn’t want to do in the first place but if anyone knew that they were brothers it would make everything so much worse. Including if Ethan had found out. Then Ethan would want to hang out with Benji all the time. Benji didn’t really like the thought of that idea, because of everything with Ethan and Alexis.
Everyone at school was still worried about Benji. They didn’t know why he was smiling, they knew that Benji had been friends with Ethan, and now Ethan was dead. So one day everyone in Benji’s classes ganged up on him and asked him why he was smiling right after Ethan had killed himself. Benji assured them that he was deeply devastated about Ethan killing himself but he was happy because he had just found out that he was going to have a little brother or sister. His class mates were surprised by this little fact. They were happy for Benji. They weren’t really sure of
what to think about this good news. Everyone was upset that Ethan killed himself.
After a while everyone left Benji alone to collect his thoughts. Benji figured that he was upset about Ethan’s death but he was the one that did it. He knew that Ethan had to go down. Every time Benji thought about the death of everyone, he thought of what happened. When he thought about it, it pissed him off. Then Benji was glad that everyone was dead. He wondered what would happen after words. He didn’t know if they would keep looking into everything or if they would drop it. Benji figured that they would drop the investigation.
A week later Benji went home to see his family for break. He couldn’t wait to get home. He couldn’t wait to see his mom. The thought of Benji going to see his family made him realize that Alexis and Ethan would never seen their families again. Benji didn’t really think about that when he was killing them. Finally Benji told his mom and dad the truth. About how he killed Alexis and Ethan. They were shocked about Benji telling them the truth, but they were pissed at Benji. Benji’s parents called the cops on Benji. Benji ended up going to jail. After a couple of day with Benji not being in school, they started to wonder where he was. So they called his parents to find out where he was. His parents told the dean of the college that Benji was in jail, because Benji was in jail, he lost his scholarship to the school. The word spread fast around campus. Everyone couldn’t believe that Benji was the one in jail.
Part 6
Benji got out of jail on good behavior. As soon as he was out of jail he met someone. Benji was glad that he met someone. He didn’t know if his parents would talk to him. He figured that he would try to call them. His parents didn’t want anything to do with him. Benji was on his own. Except for the girl that he had met. Her name was Jamie, but everyone called her Jenni like his birth mother. She was pretty. She had blonde hair and she was thin. Benji thought that she looked like his mother. He had seen pictures of his mother. The only difference between her and his mother was the color of their hair. After Benji found out that his parents didn’t want anything to do with him, he went to talk to Jenni. Benji knew that their anniversary was coming up. Benji was planning something very special for her. He just hoped that she wouldn’t say no.
The day of their one year anniversary, Benji bought Jenni a bunch of red roses, made her breakfast in bed. He made her lunch and then took her out to a romantic place for dinner. After dinner, the waitress brought them dessert. When Jenni looked down at the dessert there was a right on top. Benji got down on one knee and asked her to marry him. Jenni was really surprised by this. She started crying. Benji was afraid that he had done something wrong. Jenni assured him that he didn’t do anything wrong. She was just happy. Jenni told Benji yes. Their wedding date was set for the late fall. Jenni liked the color of the leaves when they changed. Benji agreed to have the wedding in the late fall. Jenni wanted the wedding outside. Benji was just afraid that it was going to be too cold to have the wedding in the fall. Jenni did all the planning for the wedding.
After they were married Jenni found out that she was pregnant. They wre going to have a little boy. After that he thought about his mom being pregnant and if his mom had a baby girl or a baby boy. He wondered if he had a little brother or sister. His mom wanted nothing to do with him though. He wondered if he called his parents and told them what was going on if they would talk to him. So Benji tried to call his mom and dad. His mom and dad listened to what Benji had to say. He apologized for everything that he had done and wanted everything to be right again. Benji told them he was married to someone named Jenni and that Jenni was pregnant. They were happy for him. Before they hung up Benji asked if he had a little brother or sister. His parents told him that he had a little sister and that she was at school. Benji was surprised by this news. He didn’t realize that he had been locked up for that long. He figured that he was only in there for a couple of years. Then they hung up the phone because Jenni had a doctors appointment. Today was the day that they found out if they were going to have a little boy or girl.
They went to Jenni’s doctors appointment and they found out that they were going to be having a little boy. Jenni and Benji decided to name him Benji. Just so that they could make it a tradition in their family.
After their son was born, Benji went out to see his family. On the way back from seeing his family he was side swiped by a big truck. Benji died on impact. Jenni started to get worried about her husband and called Benji’s mom and dad. They told her that Benji had already left. Jenni told them that he wasn’t home yet. They started to get worried about Benji. They had just started talking again. Jenni got off the phone with them and called the cops. She put out a missing person’s report. Benji’s parents did the same thing. A couple of days later Jenni got a phone call saying that she had to go down to the police station. So she took Benji III and went to the station. While she was driving there she got a really bad feeling. Jenni was afraid that they had found Benji and he wasn’t alive anymore. After she got there she got the news that they had found Benji’s body and that he was dead. They also gave her a note that read:
“Jenni,
I love you with all of my heart. If your reading this then that means I’m dead. I figured that something like this would happen eventually. Do me a favor? Make sure that our son doesn’t get into too much trouble and make sure that you tell him that I love him very much too. I’m really sorry that this happened but it did. Just remember this, the day that I laid eyes on you was the moment I knew that I loved you. Take care of our son. I love you very much.
Benji”
Jenni was crushed. She didn’t know what to do after she read that. She had closure on her husbands death. She didn’t want to believe that he was dead before that, but after reading that she knew that he was gone. She did exactly what the note said.
To be continued. . .