Random Thought 6

Hey! I know that I haven't posted in a while but my husband had come home for thanksgiving. As most of you know, He already left again. But in 21 more days we will be together again, and this time I finally get to go with him. I'm just glad that I have friends and family to help me get through all of the hard times. I'm thankful for that. I know that thanksgiving is over but there are so many things that I am thankful for. I don't know how I will show all of it but sooner or later I will. Hopefully. I hope that everyone has a good christmas and New Years. Whats everyones New Years resultion this year? Mine is to lost a lot of weight and have a happy time with my family. I guess thats it for now. laters. ~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 5

Hey! My husband is coming home tomorrow. As most of you know. I can't wait. Has anyone ever been stood up by someone? I know that I have. I was talking to a friend of mine today and he ended up getting stood up. I kinda feel bad for him, but I did find something else out tonight. I started calling him my teddy bear like 7 years ago and some other girl started calling him that but I was the one that started it all. Which made me happy. He's the second love of my life. He's been there for me through most of my life. Like I said before we've been friends for 7 years. I still can't believe that it's been that long but it's as long as I've known my husband for too. My husband is the first love of my life, just to all of those wondering. I have a feeling that if I never met my husband that I would have ended up marrying the second love of my life and if your reading this I mean it. Don't take any affence to it. I hope that you don't stop talking to me because of what I just said. Anyways.... for the rest of my friends reading this PLEASE don't tell my husband about this. I've kept it secret from him. I know thats not how a relationship should work I just haven't gotten around to telling him yet. I will just give me some time. My day was pretty good as most of you can tell. I mean I've been pretty stressed out lately but since I talked to my friend(not metioning names), my day has gotten better, and I'm not so stressed out anymore. I thought that I was going to end up losing a good friend today because I was being witchy(the nice version). But we ended up talking and made it good. Anyways... I hope that everyone has a good turkey day and a good holiday. love ya lots.

Random Thoughts 4

Hey! Not a whole lot going on here. So this is just something for me to ramble on again. My life has been pretty boring. I can't wait until Christmas. I'm leaving. Maybe for good, maybe not. I don't really know. But anyways... 3 days and my husband is home. Yes, I'm still counting down days. He'll be home on tuesday. I can't wait. I'm getting everyone a chistmas gift. I don't care what anyone says. I just can't wait until he comes home. I miss him as most of you know already. Anyways... I've been listening to a song lately, and it reminds me of why I have all of my friends and it also reminds me of all the memories that I have with them. I hope that everyone has a great holiday. Even if you don't celebrate thanksgiving, or christmas. It doesn't matter. Everyone celebrates something different. Anyways... can't really think of anything else to say. love ya all.

Random Thoughts 3

Hey! I'm in a really good mood tonight even though I didn't hear from my husband, but it's all good. I made this kick ass dinner tonight. Who ever thought that maple and pork would go together. I never thought about it. But I'm tellin ya it's so good. If anyone wants the recipe I have it. I mean it's a really kick ass dinner. I thought that it was going to be discuting but it was really good, and it's so easy to make. but anyways... my husband comes home in 5 days. I'm excited. I can't wait to see him. I'm pretty sure all of you are getting sick of hearing about it but I don't care. My real friends probably won't care either. I can't wait until the holidays are here. That way they can get over faster. But the only sucky thing is that my husband has to leave again after the holidays. but thats okay. nothing can get me down right. I love everyone for what they are doing. Even if I don't agree with it. but hey everyone makes mistakes. They get over it. But yea. now I'm just rambling on about stupid stuff. love ya all.

Random Thoughts 2

Hey! I'm so glad that I have friends. I mean a friend of mine from england is giving me a lesson on my heiritage. Only because he's like a superwiz. But it's cool. And to all of my friends that are in college, i'm so glad that we're friends. It just disappoints me that I'm leaving in a month. I hope that I will get to see everyone before I go. And when I find out where I'm gunna be I'm gunna e-mail all of you guys and give u my address. Or else I'll call you. which ever is easier. I'm in a good mood tonight if u all can't tell. I'm not sure why though. Maybe it's because I'm learning about my heiratiage and that I finally know what real friends I have. My husband will be home on tuesday. which is 6 days away. I'm so excited. So too all of my friends out there don't try and see me on tuesday. I'm gunna be with my husband and most of u know what that means. But I'm definatally getting everyone something for christmas. Everyone is going to get thier christmas presents early though only because I'm not going to be here for christmas. anyways... love ya. ciao for now

Random Thoughts

Hey! has any one ever told you that you have a bad habbit of some sort? I've been told that. My bad habbit is that I smoke. But face it when I get stressed out I smoke and it keeps me from throwing things. Some people do that and it irriates me. But hey whatever gets your frusterations out. I guess that everyone is different. Some people smoke others deal with it a different way. Anyways.... As everyone knows I'm married now. I'm pretty wrapped up in it, but my family will always come first. No matter what. I don't really care what anyone else thinks of me anymore. The only thing I have to worry about now is what my husband thinks of me and of what my family thinks of me. I mean yea I have friends but they could call me fat and I could just say yea I know I am and I don't really care. I mean yea I've been trying to lose weight but it's not that easy. Some people tell me that I'm not but whatever thats their opinon. Not mine. Yes I would like my friends to be honest with me but not to the point of it will start a fight. I hope that all of my friends understand that and don't get mad at reading this. Anyways... 7 days until I see my husband. I can't wait. anyways.... just rambling on again. Stupid thoughts. Can't get away from them.

family

Hey people! my husbands comin home in 7 days. What a trip this has been. Everytime he leaves a bunch of shit starts then it's right before he comes home again that it all starts all over again. But that was when I was living with my in-laws. Not a whole lot has happened to me since then. Except for the fact of my dad acctually was talkin to me again. I haven't heard from him since June. The day I graduated from High School. Then before that, I don't know how long it had been. Thats pretty sad if you ask me. But thats okay because I have other people in my life that I know care about me. I mean somedays I feel like no one wants me but then it changes, because I start talkin to someone and they agree with me about almost everything. So I thought that its a good thing. Just to let everyone know, I'm not going to be around for christmas. My husband and I finally figured out what we were doing. Well more my husband than me but still. I just can't wait until he comes home. I miss him. But now I'm just rambling on about stuff, so I'm gunna go.

Siblings

Has anyone ever wished that they never had any siblings? well I went from having 1 sibling to 12 in a matter of months. How sad is that. But part of my family I can't stand. All they do is fight. And it's been like this for as long as I can remember. I can't stand it anymore. I have enough problems as it is. Then they come here and fight. Thats why I like it better when I have the whole house to myself. then it's quiet and I don't have to deal with all of the fighting. Which is nice. But anyways... my husband will be home in 9 days. I'm excited about that. I guess that I'm just frusterated today. I woke up and the fighting started. I'm ready to move outta my mom's house. I thought that living with my in-laws was bad. Yea right. That was a cake walk compared to all the fighting here. Don't get me wrong. I love my family to death. Right? but sometimes it can be frusterating. Now I see what my mom goes through every weekend. I thought that it was a bunch of bull but now that I'm starting to grow up alot. I see what it's like for everyone in the house. I'm sure that no one likes all the fighting. I just wish that there was something I could do. But it seems like every time I try to help, I just get yelled at for something. I don't think it's fair but everytime I get yelled at it is usually my fault. But why should I try and get anything right? Right. Anyways... I think this is long enough for today.

Holidays

As most of you know the holidays are coming up quick. I mean my husband is coming home in 10 days. I can't wait for that. I miss him so much. I caught myself bawling the other day. Thats how much I miss him. I mean don't get me wrong I miss all of my friends too. I can't wait to see at least part of them. I know that I can't see all of them. I keep trying but it's not working very well. I mean some of us keep in touch through e-mail and what ever, but thats ways off subject. Back to the holidays. Thanksgiving is coming. What is everyone thankful for this year? This year I'm thankful for everyone that helped me through the hard times and everyone that is still helping me through it all. I'm thankful for my husband being able to come home and I'm thankful for all of my friends that are okay and still alive. After thanksgiving comes christmas. the biggest holiday in America. I don't know about the rest of the world but I know that in america it's about getting gifts for everyone and spending time with your family. Which some people don't get to do. Some people don't celebrate christmas. They celebrate something else. which is cool because they get to spend time with family and everyone gets to see how they should act as a family.

It's been Hard

Hey everyone! As most of you know. My husband had come home and left again. I can't wait until he comes home again. I really miss him. He's only gone until christmas this time but it's still hard to get everything done with him gone. It's hard to deal with some stuff because he's gone. But watch when he comes home again everything will be fine and dandy. Being married isn't all peaches and cream though. Don't ever let someone tell you that it is. I found out the hard way, even though people tried to tell me that it was going to be hard. If everyone knows me they know that I didn't listen to that and I like to find things out the hard way. Its going to be hard though when I move away from everyone. But I have to start my own life now. I have excepted that so far. Today it snowed for the first time since last year. I hate the cold. I don't know about everyone else but I know that I hate the cold. Anyways... everyone have a good night.