Random Thoughts 64

Hey! I got good news... Dipstick made it. He's going to be okay. He just has to learn to stay outta stuff now. I was kind of surprised that he made it. Oh well at least he made it. He was really bad but he's doing a lot better now. Which is good I think. I don't really have much to say today. Work is going okay. I guess. I mean some of the people there aren't bad. One of the guys there is something else. I'm not even really sure what to call it. But anyways... theres an update on my life. Pretty boring huh? I thought so.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 63

Hey! As most of you know all I do anymore is work. Well work is going okay. For the most part. Someone got fired but thats for reasons only work needs to know. Anyways... not a whole lot more is going on. We might be losing another puppy. I mean he's doing okay right now but we don't know if he'll make it through the rest of the day. This time it's dipstick. Yes we have named all of our puppies. There's Loner, Dipstick, Toughy, Broke Tail, Bart, and Stripe. We had 8 puppies but 2 of them died recently. Anyways... enough with the sadness. Well theres not a whole lot going on in my life except for work really. So I guess that I'm going to go.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 62

Hey! As most of you know I've been working. So I haven't been posting as often. But as of today, we're losing another puppy. Troublemaker got sick this morning and I don't think that he's going to make it through the rest of the day. It kills me to say it but I really don't think that he's going to make it. Not this time. But on the brighter side of life... the rest of our puppies are doing okay. And for most of you who don't know... I lost my puppy about a week ago. I can't believe that it's been that long already. I miss her like I really do but for the most part, I know that she lived a good life. I know that she is in a better place now and doesn't have to suffer anymore. Yes I'm still heart broken over her dying but I know that her life was lived out well. I have no regrets for her life. As I won't for the rest of the puppies. But yea... I don't really have anything else to say.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 61

Hey! Look in my last blog I was dealing with a lot of shit. Like I had just gotten home from work and my puppy had died then I got told that I was going to get anything from the military and that I couldn't get benifits from work until I've been there for six months. So what I'm trying to say is that I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to blow up in my last blog and affened anyone. But as far as I'm concerned I did grow up. And I'm really sorry, mostly to Beth, because of all the shit that I pulled. I shouldn't have takin it out on you. I hope that we can work everything out and when you come home again... if I'm still around, I would like to take you out or something. I really hope that you do get to see Andrew again though, cuz from the sounds of it you guys make a great couple and from the pictures that I've seen. I guess that my issue was that I felt like I was the third wheel in our friendships. I really didn't mean to blow up though. Like I said I was just going through a lot of shit that day. I hope that we can stay friends. It means a lot to me to acctually be friends with you. But anyways... I do have to work tomorrow. I start work at 6:30 am. which sucks but ya know... it's a job at least.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 60

Hey! Just wanted to let everyone know that this blog is gunna be me bitching about everything that is going on. So if you don't want to read it then don't. I won't be affened at all.
Okay. So heres what happened, I was talkin to someone and they told me that they wanted someone to do something with them and I feel like they don't even care about my feelings. Whatever. They don't have to care about my feeling. Cuz at this point they don't have to care about my feelings or me. I just did a ton of shit for them and whatever and I get repaid by having them fuckin blow me off. whatever. I don't even care anymore. I don't need the drama anyways. I'm dealing with a lot of shit too and you make it sound like your whole world is crashing around you. When it's really not. Keep drinking. One of these days your going to die because of it. I hope that makes you happy. And when you do die I'm not coming to your funeral because I'll be the one living where ever and then when I find out I'm going to be like "I fuckin told you so!" One of these days you will realize that you will get over your ex-boyfriend but with me I'm married and I don't get to see my husband at all. Except for when he comes home and he leaves for Iraq in september. How would you feel if you were married and found out that the love of your life wa leaving for Iraq and you won't know if he comes home or not? Deal with that shit. I don't think that you could. I have to deal with it right now. Whatever. I don't even care anymore....

one very pissed off me

Random Thoughts 59

Hey! Some of you know that my puppy died last night, but for those of you who don't know. You know now. So please don't bring it up. I'm still recovering. I'm working on getting over it. Work has been good. I mean it's not that bad. I just don't like some of the people that I work with but you'll get that. But yea not a whole lot has been going on. The worst part of my night was that my puppy Monica died. I bawled for like 2 and a half hours. I couldn't help it. She died right in my arms which didn't make it any better. I don't know what happened but she was having seisures and then she died. It was heart breaking. I couldn't help myself. But yea. I think that I'm going to go before I start bawling again.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 58

Hey! Not a lot is happening. Just work basically. I was not to happy with my pay check this week but I'll get over it. I went shopping today and next week I only work 4 days. Which sucks but whatever. At least this is my last week of training. Which is a good thing. I can't wait until I get done with all of my training. But yea... Not a whole lot has been going on in my life. I don't really talk to anyone anymore. I mean I still hang out with some friends but other than that I don't really do anything. isn't my life interesting? I didn't think so. So to all of my friends out there reading this I'm really sorry that my blog is starting to suck but I do work. Like all the time. And for those of you reading this someof u should stop drinking. Even if you think that telling us that u don't drink then your pathetic. Like seriously. Stop the drinking because if you don't then ur going to die. And I know what ur thinking "well u smoke and thats going to kill you." But I don't care if I die from smoking. I care more about my friends then anything else.

~hearts~ me

Random thoughts 57

Hey! WOrk is going well. Every day after work I go tanning though. Which is cool. I can't wait until friday. I get my next pay check. I can't wait for it. But anyways... I've had my days at work where I just don't want to be there but it's cool. I am still learning things at work but I'll get the hang of it sooner or later. But yea I don't really have anything to say so I'm gunna go.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 56

Hey! Just droppin in and sayin Hi to everyone. Work is going really good. I mean it's not the best job in the world but a pay check is a pay check to me right now. I can't wait until I get enough money to move. I have a little bit saved. I mean I want to go to england too. I will eventually. I'm still going for my birthday though. I can't wait. I'm so excited. I know that I'm suppose to be saving money to move out of my moms house and I will be. but I also am going to be saving money so I can go to England. But anyways... I think that I'm going to go.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 55

Hey! Today started off to be a really bad day but it's gotten better. I finally got paid today. I'm so proud of my pay check. No I'm not going to tell you how much it is either. Well today started out really bad but it's getting better. I have a pounding headache but I took some meds for it. I just have to wait like 20 minutes before it kicks in. Which sucks but I'll get over it. Okay, today I had to do something for my manager and I did but made a huge ass mess of it. Then some lady started having seiuzures in my work. They had to call an ambulance and everything. Then I started taking orders at work... (cuz ya know I work in a restraunt) and completely screwed them up. It was just a bad day. Then I ended up staying and extra 15 minutes at work tonight. Not that I wanted too. But I did. Then I got home and things started to get better. So now I'm just at home relaxing before I have to go back to work on Sunday. But yea. Just figured I'd let everyone know how my day went. It wasn't a good one. I mean it started off like any other day. But as the day went on it just got worse. At least I didn't break a dish at work. That would have really sucked.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 54

Hey! Work is still going really well. I can't wait until I get enough money to move out of here. As soon as I have enough I'm gone. I don't know where I'm going yet, but I'll let everyone know as soon as I get there. I love my family to death. I really do but with all of the drama thats getting started again I need to get out before it gets too bad. I hope that when everything goes downhill, that I'm not around for it. I love you guys to death. I do really. I just don't need anymore stress in my life than what I already have. I think this is where I'm gong to end my blog here. I will post another one real soon.

~hearts~ me

Random Thoughts 53

Hey! I know that most of you are wondering why my blog went from random thoughts 51 to 53 well it's because I screwed up. My last post was suppose to be random thoughts 52 and I'm an idoit and screwed up. It was probably because I was really tired and didn't really want to think about anything. I'm off work today. Which is cool. I'm learing a lot more. I mean I already know a lot of stuff at work. I still have to learn how to do the drive through thing but thats just about all I have left. Which isn't bad. I think that I'm really starting to like work. I have days where I don't really want to be there but it's getting better. Like they have a lot of rules there but I think that it's a good structure. I mean I should be looking for a place to live just about now but I don't really care. Anyways... Hope to hear from everyone.

~hearts~ me